.::My Invasion::.

B.A.P

2012-01-30T00:49:00.001Z

( I thought the previous entry was long enough, and I have quite a lot of thoughts to share about this, hence a new post)

B.A.P

SO! This 26th january saw birth to a new group, B.A.P.... Among the members are the all too familiar Bang Yong Guk(BYG) , the brilliant rapper behind the songs such as Secret's Song Ji Eun's "미친거니" and his own song to his name which is "I remember" feat Beast's Yoseob. Later, BYG duo-ed with another member of B.A.P, Zelo, also the magnae of B.A.P and released "Never Give Up"; all this before B.A.P's official debut.

Here's what i'm talking about:

-The dude in the car's trunk is Himchan btw, another b.a.p member btw :) -

-Seob's not in the mv, but hey! it's a brilliant song and it's BYG's song!-

-This i initially did not give much attention eventhough there's BYG cos i couldn't understand blonde hair, same reason as why during MBLAQ-Beast's debut days i went MBLAQ>>Beast cos i couldn't understand Seob's blonde hair, look at what happened now!!

(side note: ALL of B.A.P are blonde XD)

THEN AFTER ALL THAT . . . B.A.P DEBUTS! I didn't think or expect I would fall this hard for this group, i didn't follow as each member was revealed, nothing! I liked BYG alot for his previous songs; those posted above, but that was it.. i was just going with the flow much? Anywayz, when warrior released i listened to the song and TOTALLY went =O OHMYGAED THAT WAS AWESOMEEEEEE MOAARRRRRRRR then i listened to unbreakable and THAT SETTLED IT I LIKE THAT LEAD VOCAL WHOEVER YOU ARE I LIKE YOUR VOICE ALOT.. now i need to watch the mv and try to identify you!

When i finally got to watching the mv after it loaded( yes internet was crap, and yes i prioritised listening to songs before watching mv i'm weird like that) THEY WERE ALL BLONDE! I WAS LIKE O.o WHOT! XD .... also being all blonde like that made it difficult to identify them members !! well at least for unobservant me it was!! Ofc after trying to identify which one was belting out all that~ i ran searching for member profiles to see if i can identify who's who~ but that wasn't very much help.. i THOUGHT it was youngjae but i could be wrong, then Ara pointed out to me that some youtube comments tell who is who in with timings but that was still not enough to solidly confirm, I did use the help from the youtube comments, and kinda settled that is IS indeed youngjae, but i something in me still had my doubts~ ._. (and it was right!)

-WARRRRRIORRRRRRRR~~ must find time to make that part my new message tone?-

It wasn't until today i found out it's actually THIS ONE! (the whole time i've been mistakenly thinking that voice i like so much belongs to youngjae XD)

-It's also this song that swooned me to being so B.A.P stan right now-
-and HELLO DAEHYUN :3-

GONG XI FA CAI !

2012-01-30T00:04:00.005Z

On the 7th day of Chinese New Year, I shall write a blog entry.

First and foremost,

-I would think this speaks for itself :3 -

NEW YEAR CALLS FOR NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS RIGHT~ since i didn't bother about most things on the Jan 1 new year since my priority was getting through exams, I decided to start new year resolutions with CNY new year! XD

SO! the few resolutions! This year, I have made effort to set some for myself, and they are:

- no to carbonated drinks, this includes coke!

- Normal sleeping patterns, ie no all nighters, late nights should have a bedtime of 2am, max 3am.. wake up time would be dawn or at least in time for breakfast!

- (this one if for me to know and no one else)

- Prioritize better and be more effective with time.

- Balance life better, don't either just stay cooped up at home online or otherwise, or be at lectures.

- Drink more water!

So far, i'm doing well with resolution no 1 and 2 .. today at dinner i declined coke and ate my dinner dry, only taking gulps of black soy bean drink before and after dinner, been having too normal sleeping patterns the past 1.5 weeks, sleeping ard before midnight or shortly after and waking up at ard 4-5am .. latest was 8-ish am! :D As for Resolution 3, i made effort! but it's not as easy? >.< Resolution 4, i'm aiming for that when semester starts on Monday. Resolution 5, not too bad! Going for the meet up in Dublin was definitely a start, and tried to get Marie and Clare out in the 2 weeks i was off, but timing~ sigh.. owh well, their korean class is starting soon and we'll get to meet again, with Amy too! Hopefully we'll be meeting up over coffee before their class starts, and maybe a random dinner every now and again after their class, I could kill that 2 hours of their class time in the library on the days we manage to do dinner~ sounds productive to me! :D Resolution 6; it's not been going too well either~ it's difficult..but i'm definitely making the effort to change that!

NOW, the past week had been really, erm back to normal? As in I found my old time wasting self again~ The days were mostly filled with online-ing, trolling, and the likes. Watching MBLAQ sesame player killed a good amount of time, then there was Idol Athletics to stream on Monday 23/1,

CNY eve was spent at making a trip to Lee Foods, where i stocked up in Pretz, and found THIS which i had to get; when I first saw it, it instantly reminded me of Ara and a lil bit more :P ~ I initially wanted to go St Georges Market, but looking at the time, and since it's the Sunday market where most are artsy stuff rather than seafood and greens which even just browsing through and not buying will satisfy me, I decided against. Thought i'd just have a walk around the city centre and get what i went for and head home early~ So, in the end, killed some time at Starbucks while waiting for shops to open (they only open at 1pm on sundays); would have prefered to go Cafe Nero to kill time, but they no have wall sockets there, i needed phone battery to last a good few hrs and with trolling even though with wifi, xperia senior no have that stamina unfortunately :(

The shopping trip proved to be a success, since I found what I was looking for and more, and something impromptu which I needed for incase purposes all in less than 1 hr! :D talk about value for money, good shopping! :D On the way home, tucked in to THIS; roast duck and roast pork rice at Same Happy! Happy CNY eve y'all !!

-no more Xmas venti cups :( -

-slurp, Nomz, Slurps,Nomz-

-starter of the CNY eve gathering dinner-

-Instantly got reminded of Ara -

Friday was Derrick's bday, and whaddayaknow, i ended up being incharge of cooking half of whatever we were supposed to cook minus pot luck food! that was rather unexpected lol~ having only knew i volunteered myself when checking the update on the event on facebook, haha... Ended up making assam prawn, mango kerabu and for the first time, Tom yum, and made it from scratch! :D

-The tom yum was good! I choose to believe there's so much leftover cos everyone was shy, there was too much food, and also cos there weren't proper bowls to serve in! -

-after dinner, games, and cake -

-until 7am-

One fine day, a Wednesday, I got bored and went to Sakura for lunch. It was my first time going alone. Of all seats to choose, I chose a corner seat, deep in the restaurant, looking like such a loner XD

-inserts 2ne1's 'lonely'-

TODAY! Eve of the start of final sem! Went for Sakura brunch with Anis, was craving sushi sooo much since seeing the sushi part of Mblaq sesame player? LOL i don't know how much that affected things, but yea i wanted sushi and wanted it bad ! D= I got the opening time mixed up and we ended being at sakura 45 minutes before opening time! Turns out that they open at 1pm on sundays instead of the usual 12pm! So headed to Starbucks to kill time (LOL sounds like EVERYWHERE i go there's a starbucks shadowing me haha)

-Anis's single shot espresso vs my venti Eggnog latte-

-Soft Shell crab and avocado hand roll Nomz!-

OH YES! almost forgot!! As Anis and I were heading to Sakura, guess what was there greeting us! LION DANCE!! I think this is one of the rare times where i stumbled upon a lion dance in action and not go looking for one? We walked in at around the last minutes of its performance, but still !! to be walking in to a Lion dance, in belfast! Shortly after, a second troupe came visiting! Talk about double luck? :D is this trying to say something about 2012? :P

Managed to take 2 videos of each troupe, cos i know all my effort in trying to take pics of a lion dance in action will go to waste (by experience of the number of times at kpop i would say XD)

-round 1-

-round 2-

Usually I feel really excited when new sem (sem 2 of the year) starts; but this time around, i feel uneasy? I think it's a mix of worry + nerves + uncertainty? I'm still not really sure, I guess it's cos this time around, it's not just simply continuing part 2 of the year and chionging with new determination hoping to make the best out of things leading up to May exams, but I actually have my future to worry about, as in what happens next after it all ends? What next? Where next? will i get to graduate? After I graduate, will i leave Belfast for good and continue medicine elsewhere? Or will I stay one more year to do a MSc or *gulp* other reasons?

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!

2012-01-20T22:26:00.004Z

I don't think I've blogged since the new year? well exams is one excuse, and, well, okayh that's the ONLY excuse i can think of that's justifiable ~ most of the time until 13th jan was spent cramming and cramming and more cramming, with some distractions from idol athletics, and a new hobby!

-ma studdy buddies-

What's this new hobby? making GIFS! this hobby started on New year's Eve, 31st December 2011. I finally am able to make GIFs with photoshop! it's so much fun!! well, after awhile it becomes repetitive so not too much fun lol, but still it's very satisfying !! and i've been more active in tumblr with the birth of this new hobby, it's exhilarating to see your posts get reblogged and liked, well seeing the number of notes increase!!

I would consider this my debut, which garnered a high of 700++ notes!!

14th was Eunice's birthday celebration; that was only evening onwards, the most of my saturday was spent sleeping till 3pm! lol ... made a quick run into town to get some body shop essentials and Marie. This year, Eunice's bday was celebrated in quite a large scale I would say? Well I felt was most planned and fun? there were loads of pranks played on Eunice! Most of the pranks impho thought was too obvious and would be seen through as a deliberate prank and we would get busted the first moment on, but hey, it's eunice! XD (Eunice if you happen to be trolling and reading this, i am so sorry! hahahahaha.... )

Sunday 15th's the road trip! headed off to Dublin with Clare and Marie for a wee meet up with K-poppers from ROI .. it was so much fun! Enjoyed the drive down head bopping to kpop all the way~brought ma babies (Speakers) along since Carrie needed something to play music from/with.. since only the bar section had speakers and not the restaurant section..and we weren't taking a bus or train (but i would still have brought them even though!) lunch was brilliant! Julie couldn't decide between sondubu jjigae and bulgogi, and since i wanted ddukbulgogi intitially, i decided to switch to bulgogi so we can share, and she can have the best of both worlds, yay! :D got to talk to and meet lots of new ppl..then the ride home was equally brilliant~ wrapped the day up with house cleaning! can't imagine to end a tiring very sleep deprived but fun weekend!

-julie's order of sondubu jjigae-

-my order of bulgogi-

This week had been really laid back. I've not felt so bored in a long time!!! Monday was spent sleeping, a little recuperation from the tiring weekend, Tuesday had a meeting with my advisor of studies. She'll be heading to Malaysia and Singapore along with my head of school and a few other uni staff..We met up to talk about Malaysia and stuff, and at the same time I asked about my academics. Singapore doesn't look too promising at this point of time. I think I will still apply, of course, but best not keep my hopes up .___. sigh~ My best bet now would be Malaysia, PMC, and IMU? Gonna look through some MSc options as well of course! I am so tempted to apply for MSc courses in Singapore, but I think my only doubt/caution here is that I am quite aware, or I can predict the wrath that's gonna happen if i apply, by sheer luck get accepted, World War III will break loose? Hopefully all this can be settled by this weekend, then next week start applications? At least the MSc courses I think i can manage, but med applications i think i need to careers counselor to guide me through?

Wednesday i declare as sloth day! why? cos i woke up at 11+am, and around 6 hours later, i fall back asleep! Without a shower ! LMFAO XD ... i was THAT Bored? hahahaha....

Thursday was another dull day. Lost count of how many times i sent SOS tweets asking for suggestions on what i can do and such... i was so damn bored! Went out for dinner with Eunice, that was a bit of a cheer~ then went for a long talk session with friends~ That was nice .. killed lots of time too..

-killed lots of time with this-

-free dessert!!-

-paid dessert of apple pie-

TODAY! woke up early in time for breakfast, but no, instead of being the good normal muggle, i decided to roll around under the covers till it was brunch time lol .. did the usuals.. felt utterly bored again, in the evening made an escaped and came out for dinner, then hobo at starbucks and typing up this entry... since the wifi at home is a bitch i thought i'd stay out till close after dinner. I'd just go home and get frustrated. But even at starbucks the internet is bitchy. Sigh my luck.

-bibimbap and ginseng tea-

I've got quite a few pictures to share with this entry, but i shall add all that once i'm home? I CAN upload and add some that are on the phone here and do the rest in camera's SD card at home, but heck i'll just do it all one shot later xP ... DONE !

Merry Xmas~ ♥

2011-12-26T01:03:00.003Z

WOAH THERE!
......... moment of realisation, my last Xmas belfast has just come and gone ! =O

Looking back, I would think this is my best Xmas in Belfast? first year was lonely (._.) .. 2nd year was great with loads of friends ~ but i have to say i was in the xmas spirit most this year~ with the gift shopping with each unique individual in mind, sending out xmas cards and those lil gifts to my dear friends in singapore, hong kong, india, brunei, and australia..

-and the amazing race begins! -

best part was not leaking one word about this and have them find a surprise package in the mail, and then going "excuse me miss, but what is this?!" ... it just makes my day... nothing beats giving surprises to your dear ones~ =3 ... on a more domestic note, this year i managed to plan out the gifts and cards slightly better too.. unlike last year where i didn't plan anything and being all haphazard.. so yay!

On Xmas eve, we had an awesome hot pot =3 ... i love hot pot, was really looking forward to it since the last one was ages ago~

-now THESE are king prawn-

(one day if i REALLY must make asam prawn, i have an alternative to turn to if St Georges Market is REALLY that out of reach :D )

-hot pot! -

-Nommzzz -

*BURP*

- This my gift to the each person in the house, I hope you all like it, though i have to admit it is a tadbit childish of a gift, paper stars, pfft.. and it's not as pretty as it could have been. with the real origami jars in which the stars are supposed to be in, but I've tried my best to compromise and make the best out of what Belfast can offer me -

The house has a tree this year! :D thank you becky for loaning us the tree =3

-yes, i did that, the pig rabbit-

Another december highlight would be THE PARCEL, from Ara was finally all compiled and sent over ! another yay! It weighed ard 4+kg.. i was expecting it to be mad heavy.. but i actually managed to walk home with it.. I could have even went in to tesco to shop a little if i wanted to, LOL! Pictures of detailed contents of the loot shall come later~ since i'm blogging snuggly in bed, and all that stuff and the box is, well not snuggling with me XD

I also bought my own xmas present; they arrived, and Infinite's seasons greeting was also part of my december vice... how i overlooked the missed delivery card and somehow ended up noticing it is quite freakishly coincidental?fated? whatever you call it...

all mentioned arrived safely .. amen ...

-mad large box for a seasons greeting set! -

- don't know what i'd do without Amy and her swift hands! -

- hello there-

- Ara's and Bella's -

- =3 -

-poster -

- my self bought Xmas present to self -

-rawr -

Here's a compilation shot of all of it =3 (BTD and paradise are not part of december vice, but i rounded up all my infinite collection and put it all in one box)

-♥-

Here're the heart melting tokens from dear friends that came in THE PARCEL:

-zookeeper loves this very much. Thank you Ara<3 -

-Thank you my couple Jacintha <3 -

- ps Ara: this is TOO CUTE to be a base, not having bubble wrap is not an excuse-

Another last in Belfast was the xmas market ! gonna miss it loads~ Here's what reaped my very last visit there~

-mini dutch pancakes, you will be dearly missed-

Oh, on the 17th, we had our Xmas dinner, our house + guthrie ppl + a few more friends~ on the main menu we had turkey, veg, yorkshire pudding, awesome awesome garlic potatoes, parsnips, ribs (THE BEST ribs tony romas can go home lol), baked pasta... might have forgotten one or two items? there was ALOT of food! oh, and did the secret santa thingy... i hope you liked your gift ken! i half expected you to own that rihanna album already lol~ phew! good thing you hadn't ... and I was presented with this cuddle moo moo .. thank you derrick~

-everyone, meet dubu! :D -

A few to remember the wonderful night by:

-such a handsome yummy boy after some tanning in the oven-

(if oni i didn't go home for a shower i would've been there to take this handsome boy's pic before it was cleaved lol)

-these are AMAZING alexis =3 -

-PORTUGESE EGG TART !!!! nuff said , jiayi jemima <3 -

-the secret santa pile! can you spot moo moo's temporary home? :P -

Oh yes, and a week before that, went ice skating and bowling with Amy and Victoria, i enjoyed it so much! Waited for the bus to the ice bowl, and it only arrived when we were on the opposite side of the road -.- ... ended up taking a taxi there, i ever knew i missed bowling so much !! Ice skating was a nice experience too... Amy was so nice to refer to me as bambi, bless her <3 ...

it was also on this day that i received my first Xmas card for the year..

-thank you Victoria<3 -

Last but not least, Merry Xmas All. may you have all the blessings in the word, happy holidays and seasons greetings! Lots of love from Kellyfish in Belfast~ rawr <3 -

( i just realised i blogged the events in reverse chronological order XD)

catch up!

2011-12-11T01:36:00.003Z

I actually still don't have time for proper blogging.. so behind work... hmm let's see what I have for backlog... 1) data sets (8-9 sets due Friday!) 2) haematology test to cram for monday 3)REVSION 4) start plans for after this degree ends .. but no, my screwed up life needs to be documented, no matter how unworthy it might be.

THE BIG BANG STORY

Big Bang attended the EMAs! IN BELFAST ! so what the fanaccount reader's digest version would be: we (clare, marie, and i) rushed to the airport on thursday, big bang no show, then friday staked out all day at the airport with more ppl (hello amy and becca), made new friends (hie emma and linda) and no show cos apparently they missed their flights that morning, lol ! .. and then saturday they finally arrived! it was awesome that experience of welcoming big bang at the airport... have always wanted to experience something like this.. then car chase to the hilton (wrong hotel at the end of the day, but still, good experience) .. then went wondering around city centre, and missed Zico by 15 minutes!! ARGH!! >.< ... anyways, called it a day ard evening/dinner time.. sunday was spent wondering around city centre..hoping to bump into big bang, since theoretically, where else in boring belfast would you be, besides bus tours and victoria square lol... you're in the UK you HAVE to shop...lol .. but no luck =C .. then went home to watch the EMAs, then when sped out right after cos big bang won to hopefully congratulate them ..ended up having the experience of standing in the fecking cold till past 3am ..

Some pictures to document that awesome weekend (more to come! i just need to find in which SD card they're in! )

-cool card only fit for Mr TOPcool-

-me made this fanboard-

-frm all of us in Ireland, south and north <3 -

-Florence's epic drawing,taeyang you are much loved-

-Hello Mr Z-i-c-o ~

-Why hello mr yesterday-was-my-bday boy-

after that weekend, things started to act up? .. well in the sense my old habits started to slowly creep back to haunt me.. so difficult to break the chain once it's started all over, i'm nonetheless trying my very best to beat it and make miracles once again !! One of them bad habits would be bunking PEC, and alot! before i'd at least go on tuesday, with or without denise.. if not more... i so wasted my november membership fee! argh! and december's 11 days gone and not I haven't been yet >.< ... MUST somehow dig self up to go this coming tuesday! no matter how fecking cold! dress warmer ! incentive to actually purchase that expensive queens hoodie !! go go go !!!

A compilation of pictures from where i last left off~

-HAVE to make this( bah kut teh) more often-

-I was very unhappy that day (that giant cookie sux ! >.< -

-my new favourite cafe <3 (ze tiramisu is awesome!!) -

-gyu's fault-

-sashimi rice!! unagi fried rice has competition! lol-

-FUDGEEEEE cakeeeee =3 -

-Nellie visited! and brought along company! :) -

-Nellie visits, the house is blessed with the presence of awesome apple crumble cheese cake-

-Nelie visits and we get dim sum with egg tart -

-Belfast Xmas Continental market! (my last one sobs) shall troll the place VERY often/frequent! -

-Nellie visits, the house is blessed with awesome cheese baked rice! :D -

-tiramisu still better-

-hello new hat! i shall name you hoaegi? XD-

-BIBIMBAP =3 -

-at patrick's farewell, all the best dude!-

-last minute chiong for the blardy presentation that caused me to miss UCF uk =x -

-such a christmasy feel whenever there's mince pie and a cinammon hot chocolate<3 -

-hello there yeol's cousin-

-final round of bibimbap (Before)

-final round of bibimbap(after) .. yummz..goooddd -

-midnight dosirak 1-

-dinner/midnight dosirak 2-

Those dinner/midnight dosirak i'm not too proud off >.< .... THAT in the wee hours of the night?! are you sureeee??! well although i didn't finish the whole box at one go, but still... half is still equally bad and should not be encouraged. Also , snacking amount/intake has rised significantly as well ... argh need to stop succumbing to these ghastly cravings >.< .... bad !

GIF attempted again!

This post entry doesn't feel finished yet, and well for one, i haven't blogged about my saturday yet ! That should be a seperate post but am too sleepy right now to do anything like that ... shall wait for the next time when i'm able to stay still and blog! till then~~

B-I-P-O-L-A-R

2011-11-29T04:05:00.000Z

RIGHT .... i've still not enough free time on my hands to sit down properly and update all i've left out of from since where i last left off... i'm too torn apart wallowing here and being bipolar.

How i am being bipolar . Being happy for others and at the same time being in agony because of them certain group of biatches . .... Here's the story .. Earlier in the day I was in fits over b2st like marathoning their globe trekking.. vegas-LA/SF-seoul-singapore .... like WTF that's like 20+++ hours of travelling with 2 transits ... even if they travelled first class, which is most likely to be, but THE JET LAG! the TIREDNESS! T_______T .. after they've safely arrived....all 6 ... after that part 2 unleashed...will i be able to watch through... MMA i already am currently putting off as much as i can, preferably after dec 5th at least ... nvm i am determined to watch .. it's streaming at a time and day where i have no lectures/good timing.. i WILL STREAM .... be it i die in the process or feel mega crap depressed after that i will ... i shall search for a remedy after that ... the fact it's being hosted in singapore makes me want to watch it more... if not be there, which is utterly impossible of course OTL ....

moving on.....

After that tug of war with me myself and i... it as all okayh actually .. not too bad.. dinner like usual...did some that's-what-friends-are-for duties....then it hit again .. with the bloody biatches being jetlagged and not being able to sleep??! and then ..... Ara woke up and decided after her shower, that she's going to MAMA ... helping scout for tix for her.. didn't breathe a sigh of relief UNTIL saw her tweet about having tickets booked and settled ... truthfully , I was happy for her. I know how it feels first hand, to (soon) have them biatches in the country you're in but you cannot fucking go see them... I don't want that to happen to ara. BUT ... i'd be lying if i didn't admit i felt a tad bit jealous ... the fact she's able to live out that life.. live/work in sg.. and have that freedom...and attending mama for sakes of this discussion... i know she's also as torn and in dilemma as i am .. only different life situations..mine more academic realated ... hers in a different way/perspective..but one thing's the same..we both have this dilemma of a predicament revolving/based on this shizz... it's just difficult !! So conclusion.. i cannot be more excited that the fact, Ara is going for mama, she's gonna have a whole new experience of attending an awards show, see b2st, watch b2st perform, bask in utmost pinacle of achievement and glory... i can't even describe how she might/will be feeling from this all once it ends... the epiphany is just .. .. . ..

this can go on forever so i shall stop here with my latest experiment ... still frigging pissed with the color export but hey~ i'm trying >.<

one month since. . .

2011-11-20T04:46:00.002Z

It's been exactly one month since i've blogged an entry...and woah has a lot happened.... i have to say the biggest of all events that has happened was .... BIG BANG CAME TO BELFAST FOR THE EMAS !! BELFAST! BIG BANG ! and the best part was, i got to live out the FGL that i will never be able to with parents in the same country..well as long as i still live at home~ lol ... shall blog about that later.. also in the past month..lots has happened ... uni related a bunch of stuff happened.. new favourite place to chill in city centre.. got meself a new baby ~ and much more...

first of all, new baby says hello,

Everything else shall come later in another entry~ for now.. i would like to rant... NEED to get some things off ..

how shall i begin this... see, the way i am with ppl i'm not too close with, well closer than strangers/casual friends i know but just randomly bump into or see on occasions... i will still choose to remain on the quiet side. I prefer to listen most of the time. To an extent it's given the impression to these ppl that i'm the emo kind of person, whom i AM NOT. ask anyone whom i'm closer to, the last thing they will describe me with is emo. Nuff said. I do not see things simple, I see things through. For gaed's sakes my mind and brain works!

Also by nature, i'm not the "in yo face prancy" sometimes it can pass off as attention seeking, shrieking perky chatty typical girl .. i just don't care about being in that circle.. having something to talk about constantly, in topic, and avoid silence.. i don't care about keeping up with what's currently popular and being talked about, hence i will have lesser topics of common interest to keep conversation. I just don't care. But that DOES NOT MEAN i'm a walkover.

That DOES NOT MEAN i'm not worth being taken seriously when i DO speak or give suggestions. It's a nice feeling being in the "see i told you so" situation in an argument or debate.. but when that happens too often it can get quite annoying, pissing off, and irritating. I may not be correct ALL the time, but that doesn't mean there aren't times when I AM CORRECT and not worth giving a PROPER listen. HEAR ME OUT just ever so once in a while?

Secondly, I admit that i am not THE best of the best. not studying THE course to study, and just because you are, that doesn't mean it gives right for me to be looked upon as a rank lower, a class lower, that bit less worth., suppressed. I might be being over sensitive on this, but that's the message/feel i'm getting from some, NOT ALL, only from some.

And finally, what is a close friend? someone whom you're comfortable with telling things the lesser known the better? A listener to your problems and woes in life? Someone who would be there for you when you need someone to talk things out with or when you're just not feeling right? If that's what a close friend is, does that only apply to when there is NO ONE ELSE around? but when there's a few more other people, that supposedly close friend gets totally ignored? The only time of acknowledgement is when you possibly were summoned to asked if the person is ready to leave the house for destination? I could just be; again, over sensitive on things, with the other person thinking, oh you're kinda playing host to visiting friend, hence you might be busy with her and thus i shall give you space and not disturb you. I shall go hang and chat with the others...and also, these other ppl, we have a common topic of interest, and a highly addictive one too..(it's kinda like how i can go non stop about kpop with fellow kpop-ing friends) but ever wondered a little acknowledgement of existence would be appreciated? Sometimes, i just feel used.

Again, call me over sensitive again, but sometimes i just feel copied. Used. Like, i start something and it just gets followed/copied. For the sakes of attention. It's quite a common thing actually, whatever i feel's being copied/followed for, but the trend in which it happens, it's too coincidental to be called a coincidence/common occurrence. Is it that necessary, important, crucial to always be in the centre of attention, is it?

Really, I just don't care. But it's come to a stage where i just can't help it but go all *rolls eyes* when i see it occur/happen. It's got its limits too.

I don't know if i'm really that awkward/weird of a person in real life... well i mean, the way i can click/kick off with friends made who have the common interest of kpop, it's so easy, no awkward moment at all .. slowly, over time after we've had talked more and understood each other more, real life issues blend in, we actually becomes really good and close friends. But with friends made who do not have that common topic, it's just that wee bit more awkward.

and another week !!

2011-10-20T22:32:00.001+01:00

Another week has gone by! just like that!!

let's see.. since the last entry up till last weekend, got meself a new pair of shoes, a new coffee press, Rice jie's gift arrived, MSSNI/QMC/MyPNI joint reception, sun kee dinner, bailey's got a new fan, back to st brigid's church for that sunday :)

from city hunter to bargain hunter (lol cheesy lame, i know)

my new toy <3 (i shall name you choding)

Thank you Rice jie <3

Weekend was filled with events .. saturday morning went for a welcoming reception (good lamb with mint sauce ^O^ will always be remembered..) .. then in evening went for dinner at sun kee followed by a games session at guthrie.. that's where bailey's gained a new fan~ gaed bailey's is good :)

Then came sunday morning proper..mad hungry when i woke up (missed waking up at 4am >.< .. well i did wake up at 4.30am .. saw some tweets from ara and face smashed pillow again .. OTL) .. so had no choice but skip the 10.30am mass i could have gone for and had a fry and then went over to starbucks to kill more time then afternoon mass..

Monday came! thing i love about mondays is i made it a point to give myself a breather and not go into the lab on lecture days..so went home and made my meal of the week..this week's kimchi jjiggae! But i'd say it's more of gochujang jjigae than kimchi jjigae.. i didn't realise i had THAT little kimchi left >.<

Tuesday went for a dinner buffet in the presence of the Msian HiCom, everyone thought 'buffet' meant eat as many rounds as you want dinner.. but in fact it's presented/served buffet style (think canteen style, clone of Sri KL style lol .. only more posh) .. Choice of lamb or chicken, i took lamb while eunice took chicken.. served together with potato mash, pilau rice, and salad.. many said the carrots tasted weird, i found it okay... quite appetizing in fact lol .. and dear eunice, my weird sensitivity to orange is that i can't eat orange slices, but orange juice, some orange zest in salad if fine~ XD

Upon reaching home, with a half full tum tum... headed for the kitchen and microwaved my first egg ! it was so simple ! took only 1 minute! 20 secs per 'session' to avoid the egg bursting.. and voila ! egg sunny side up! :D paired with a extra double shot latte ~ and that was my night complete~ wanted to pull an all nighter doing some data analysis but died at ard 3am >_<

Spent wednesday in the lab..I don't know why when i entered the lab, i felt so drowsy! no i did not take the drowsy effect anti histamines! It was so terrible i had to run to the vending machine to get some life support ( in this context, maltesers <3 ) ... oh, something (fortunate?) happened when buying these chocs, i found money! when i put my hand into the coin slot to take my change from buying the chocs, i got more!
There can be 2 possibilities :
1) i'm guessing ppl bought stuff from the vending machine and forgot abt their change? or
2) the vending machine was spoilt and dispensed too much change

saviour of the day~

After lab, headed on to starbucks, was supposed to meet up with clare, amy and marie before they headed on to their korean class, which i already took last year.. but due to miscommunication and uncertainties, we ended up sitting at opposite tables but not meeting up XD

-anti depressant therapy-

and also, tuesday morning gave me quite a shocker of news, UCF UK confirmed 6th december! tentatively, on paper, i should be able to go, since monday i finish at 1pm tues and wed no class, and it's second last week of semester..so by reason and all i should be able to go..but but but .... .argh .. let's talk about this again later.. took me quite a lot to avoid the near depression i almost got myself into .. AGAIN .. >.< ....

on more uplifting/happier notes...

these giddies are seriously such good things to life.. yes there have been times when i've abused the calculator, pulled hair, and clenched my dear heart.. but the times they're the reason behind my close shaves with almost near depression, and such.. definitely a good distraction.. plus, for some reason i just enjoy walking miles and miles listening to their playlist! definitely something positive in this dear laifeu? XP

Longest Day

2011-10-13T03:06:00.000+01:00

(talking abt wednesday btw)

Have not had such a long full swing day in a long time..almost 12 hrs back to back to back non stop >.<

Woke up at ard 6.30am.. ambitiously actually wanted to leave house at around that time or close to 7am..but seeing how pitch black it was then, i decided otherwise .. so productively ran through the R exercise from supervisor (which should've been done like 2+ weeks ago but i procrastinated bad >.< ) ..finally set off at 8.30am.. (Could have set off ard 7.30am but nahhh) .. joined the PEC today..after coaxing from too many ppl i gave in .. denise i'm counting on you to make my fee's worth do not fail me prease...

that was done and arrived at HSC at 9.30am .. showed supervisor my "homework" and then got him to show me how to work the GEO again...productive much.. i now know how to process raw gene expression data, analysing shall be my next challenge, along with learning R and some nifty programming..selfishly borrowed most of what the library can offer me... i need all the help i can get !! crucial that i own this research project!!

at 12pm+ sped-walked home to have 20 minutes to swallow lunch..then it was out for peer mentoring meeting with first year..2 outta 5 showed up..went well..had a chat over some coffee..coffee good~ lol ..and prolly shouldn't have told one girl a lil trick i used to sneaky sneaky lol ..

then it was off to the library to finish up presentation slides, fit in the references and etc...it was nice being able to work in the company of tweet buddies...so less lonely, the way i like it to be... i like me time and me space .. but i just don't work in total isolation from the world within and out there.. ironic and contradicting much i know..but i just prefer working in the company of the world out there >.<

then it was 5pm ..group discussion time..had quite an enjoyable time really, we should do this more often...get prepared earlier for presentations, practice a few extra times..learn stuff on the way too..definitely a productive 2.5-3 hrs~

THEN CAME 8PM.... FINALLY CAME DINNER TIME.. my first proper meal of the day...breakfast and lunch respectively consisted of jam + 2 slices of bread + a glass of milk.. nothing else.. i was kept away frm being hungry but still ... >.< ... so ending the long tiring day with an awesome meal at abacus cannot be more rewarding~~~~

Thank you for your mad soft shell crab craving eunice <3

It's currently 3am .. I shall leave y'all with my latest achievement of this and bid y'all sweet dreams ~ till next time~

1 week on ..

2011-10-10T01:03:00.005+01:00

one week passed just like that ! =O

SO .. the week came and gone and could have been more productive (gaed don't you just get sick and tired of reading that same line lol) .. monday was spent doing house stuff..sortings and stuff..tuesday afternoon was spent at the HSC office trying to figure out R .. i felt so stupid not knowing how to launch R in linux >.< ( i think i know now , gonna try it in the office tomorrow) .. wed was a lie in followed by peer mentoring training --> library-->sb ..

There was a mix up with internet installation OTL ... i can swear upon that when i was talking to the fella to schedule the installation he told me 6th oct, thursday! as i was talking to him i put it in my calendar AND made note on house's fb group just so i won't forget >.< ... but after waiting a whole afternoon till almost 8pm i finally called VM and the teller told me "oh you're scheduled for tomorrow" ... i was like WTF i just wasted my afternoon at home (yes marathoning city hunter was a waste of daylights!) ... so FINE.. another afternoon of waiting on friday then..hmmph! was so looking forward to ending hobo days at starbucks!!

Friday morning..went into the HSC for R workshop scheduled at 10am.. went early and used the internet to check mail..and received an email from supervisor about reschedule of the workshop cos of seminar room booking availability.. 12-2pm now.. great! VM installation was supposed to be between 1-6pm .. well idc imma just have to take a chance and hopefully luck will be on my side.. i'm not going another weekend without internet! it's just too troublesome and non functional to allow! and luck WAS indeed on my side! the VM fella didn't come till ard 4pm .. yay! the house has internet again! goodbye hobo days at starbucks ! i will not miss you~ future visits to starbucks if sitting in will just be chillax-ing and nothing more!

saturday ended up quite.. .. .. kick back and relaxing ..... ... which shouldn't have been actually.. should have spent the day catching up all the haematology and anaemia lectures.. ORZ ... spent early part of the morning streaming mucore..later part of morning city hunter + ramen + more city hunter .. evening felt even lazier after shower i think i just stared into space? can't remember much of sat evening >.< .. i remember dinner of milo + cream crackers + "Lau fung" fortune cookies LOL .. prolly the evening slipped away with Ara and some giddie spazzing?

OH speaking of infinite ... i finally learnt how to gif ! it's quite easy actually.. but the quality control is still >.< ... the problem is .. GIMP can only save animation/gif after converting layers to indexed instead of RGB .. and with that the quality change no matte how HD the screenshots used are >_____<"

here are the better success... others succeeded on the account gif part successs but output quality is just ._. .. .. need to work on that and transitions and timing... and sizing !! OTL sizing >.< .. so much more to learn !

could have been better >.<

Sunday was spent streaming inkigayo-->church-->starbucks while waiting for lunch to open-->lunch-->tesco-->home-->takeaway jaipur with anis --> came home for dinner with anis and eunice --> lots of chatting --> here i am! XD

so yea that's it for the week.. a lil walkthrough and recap and wrap up at a glance :)

monday: ddeokbokki potluck (yes potluck cos i threw in scraps too lol)

-later eaten with ramen = rabboekki? lol -

monday night: dinner with eunice

(ramen ddeokbokki potluck + tuna thingy from eunice)

Tuesday : hobo time at starbucks

(poor neglected brownie, was so engrossed in gif-ing learning i only took 2 bites out of it in the 2-3 hrs i was there)

Wednesday : my hobo days are coming to an end! jjyeaaahh!!

Thursday: Belfast (tesco in particular) has chestnuts !! for roasting! :D

Friday: Celebratory dinner for having internet back in the house again!
(went overboard, yes i know.. kinda xin ku after finishing it all lol)

Sunday: =]

next week :
non FGL : 18hr practise life needs to happen .. hopefully i can get started analysing some gene profiles and signatures (ie actually start research project properly!!) .. make notes and catch up with whatever incomplete from week 1 and 2 and keep up with week 3 !!

FGL: sort out HDDs .. rearrange and sort files.. evaluate finances to see if i can afford a new HDD ? >.<

YES i'm still alive

2011-10-02T21:42:00.001+01:00

YO~ yes dead i am not yet... at least as of now~

i NEED to stop making this lazy habit of going MIA everytime summer hits and only coming back a week after semester starts.. lots have happened over summer.. a short one this time round, but an effing amazing one i wouldn't want it any other way~

After being kidnapped by Kelly for U-Kiss, next event was B2ST! The best part wasn't VVIP+Hi 5 .. but getting to experience it all with Ara all the way~ Squaking a rubber chicken in kikwang's face and startling him was priceless, YES it was prolly a once in a lifetime opportunity, but having a fellow biatchmate made it all the more unforgettable~ i guess all the hair pulling stress tension moments to having that made happen and possible's all worth it... fanaccount shall come in due time... .. running up to this event, got to meet awesome ppl.. Bella, and her friends. Awesome.

The next and final event: MTV World stage. I initially never intended to attend.. no matter who the korean act is (excluding b2st ofc) .. when it was announced b2st.. you have no idea how much i cursed at it. Yes i realise the fact i will be able to see B2ST twice in the same month, but the thing is this is a not for sale concert, where you have to WIN tickets. AND what if i don't win tickets, or win but cannot camp out early enough for good view and be at the way back and have to watch the screen?? i'd rather watched an uploaded re-run from youtube! Details shall come with fanaccount..but here's the jizz: i ended up gearing up self with THREE different zone tickets just cos i don't know which gives the best view. That is how much i go through and the extents i go through for B2ST. It's crazy. It's ridiculous. From this event, i made 2 new friends, Azurin and Lisa, both awesome ppl.. it'd because of them that i got that awesome view again... forever life and luck of second row.. but second row form the very front! and centre stage! no complaints! just lifelong thanks and gratitude nad gratefulness..

-yes i was lucky to WIN tickets, not one pair, but TWO! -

-yes it was spotted and chuckled upon ^O^ -

After all the awesome events that're dream like.... it was time to hit back to reality; Belfast. August 1st was scheduled to fly back to Belfast.. but during transit got to leave the terminal and have dinner with Jacintha and Gera, best(in the sense of memories made, not value or taste lol) subway to date.. special too! chillie crab subway anyone? :P

-thank you Jacintha, i love it <3 -

Mum came along with me back to Belfast, obligation of responsibility of a parent. I reasoned out that even if *touch wood* house got broken into and i happen to be in "mortal peril" what can she do?! she sees the sense and point i made, and she agrees, but she just insists on it. FINE. In actual fact, it's not her coming over and looking after me, it was really more the other way round. I had to settle the meals and etc.. the only thing she did was my laundry (which i thank whole heartedly..me no like doing laundry, eventhough it's my own as much as me no like vacuum lol) ... oh yes, mum likes salmon..so i got to hitch along! on regular days.. my FGL does not allow me salmon meals 4 days in a 7 day week ..

Then came resits.... i was heck nervous the night before pathobiology's exam i had to run off to cry.. hmmm yes... the only time that happened was back in AS Stats paper..way back in 2009... but the real shocker was scientific methods/stats resits (yes i had 2 resits embarassing/stupid yes) ... the best part.. one day before resits officially started, the school changed the timetable! i printed the timetable a week ago and didn't check back..well i didn't expect any changes to something so official? so i prepare and prepare..thinking it's stats exam THEN scientific methods.. and Waddayaknow... it's actually scientific methods THEN stats, which means i prepared for the wrong paper!! thank god it wasn't pathobiology that got rescheduled if not i would have readily cried and jumped off the building maybe? so i did the scientific methods paper based on recall and memory from whatever that took place in the revision session..thank god i passed that module and also pathobiology's resit well .. thank god! amen!

- YES i made that, bloody simple to make making maggie takes more skill, no joke-

Then came the carefree almost month long holiday .. it went pretty well.. i got to do most of what i wanted.. laze around..walk aimlessly to places...drama..drama and drama... oh yes, and since i had the time, i thought i'd set up taking orders for b2st calendars (and ofc quan some qian along the way... it won't be much though..roughly a tenner i think from it all.. sigh..but it's something~~ :] .. .. ) ... hopefully it will all work well ..fingers crossed! ... dashed are the dreams of zhuan-ing enough to recover the losses from forex and MG charges ... sigh ... did initially think of taking PT work in that idle 3 weeks..but nah since getting NIN would be like 3wks plus processing...might as well carpe diem the days of carefree time off.. since when 3rd year starts it'll be hell...

- thanks eileen <3 .. i couldn't have found a better one myself, cucakes ftw <3 -

-HELLO piro piro!! finally after 1 year + of yearning, i finally own you~ -

speaking of 3rd year.. final year honours project.. lucky enough to get first choice...and i mean EFFING LUCKY ... i was the only one who chose that project so no competition so i get the project eventhough i was borderline pass from last year... my project's to do with bioinformatics..microarrays..gene profiles and etc... met twice with supervisor, who's a really nice man... this project is more data analysing based so i practically don't step into a lab to carry out any wet practicals, which i prefer.. i sincerely prefer working with computers than cell cultures or microscopy .. so yay! downside would be i've new softwares to learn; R, sscMap, more complex excel formulas and functions...on top of that, this bioinformatics and jiggies... i've not learnt them before previously, so it's a new concept, topic, field and all.. so yeaa...lots of self learning...something i've been doing since form 2.. self learning and teaching... (teachers weren't much use for science and maths in english..oops!).... so yea... HWAITING KELLYFISH HWAITING ...

it was all grand till a few days leading up to start of sem... 22nd/23rd september..internet service got cut off... i rather think it wasn't miscommunication between ISP and us.. but rather the subcription did end on 22nd/23rd... cos i checked the details danny gave from that time i needed to call ISP to fix the internet that wasn't working, and installation date was 22nd/23rd August (can't remember now) .. and we had rescheduled new installation to 11th october (to maximise our 'time left' with old subscription.... oh well~ got that all sorted out and new installation will be on 6th october, this wed .... time leading up to that was difficult, been hobo-ing at Starbucks most of the time.. i would go to the library, but i was afraid of disturbing ppl around me with my earphones (although they are earphones but in extremely quiet places, some sound can still escape..) ... so yea~ a cuppa.. and many many hobo-ing hours/days ... can't wait for these hobo days to come to an end..i love starbucks and coffee and the comfy seats and all.. but i've been at this so frequent it's starting to feel pressured? stressed? no not stressed? just tired of it.. starbucks is supposed to be the occasional chillax place.. with long long hours of chatting.. not long long hours of work, trolling, and more work... sigh ..

AND YES, as of late, i have a new bias, INFINITE ~~~ initially when ara semi slightly spazzed about them.. i just let it roll and pass... i told myself i'm not gonna get involved, i'm not gonna just not! i've already enough with stanning FTi and cnblue then b2st (which i like semi almost giving up on FTi cos i just can't cope, i've a real life to lead and make good things and achievements out of too! ) .. so i told myself no i'm not gonna get involved..then after much persuasion (and a lil too much time) .. i gave sesame player a try..that was enough to seal it.. well the songs are really good too..that was one of the main things... then came YOMA then came scandal then came days of infinite then came children of the night the night (which ruptured my intestines, colon and maybe the liver a little bit It was THAT FUNNY! ) ... so now i stan infinite. to . the . ends. of . the world (?) ...

some infinte :

-nuff said. just listen. nuff said-

-my fav song thus far <3 -

there's alot more and i can go on and on and on and on.. ... but naahhhh ~ :P

HOME @ GMT +8

2011-06-20T09:14:00.002+01:00

FINALLY HOME at GMT+8 again ! :D

it's good to be home again..after almost a year of being away..coming home to the comforts of grandma living next door~ ...friends family and being in the same timezone as 75% of my online community is real nice..

i'm such a grandmother's child.. if it wasn't for the grandmothers in my life... i prolly would've died before i finished kindergarden (no exaggeration, really) ...

Arrived in KL at around 9-ish pm last thursday..then the very next day, Friday.. went out with Kelly, her sis and Tze Hui to U-Kiss's fanmeet...we got lost on the way there..took us 3 hours to reach pavillion..lol the impromptu city tour was frustrating (when half the car had a full bladder!) but it was fun nonetheless..finally got there and the crowd was surprisingly quite a moderate size..judging by the fact it's a public event..eventhough we didn't get there early to secure a good place..it was still ok..got to see the boys..didn't get to see performances first hand live though..cos when performances started all the cameras suddenly shot up and blocked everything >.< ... so i only saw from whatever my camera managed to record and a few seconds when the crowd moved to my favour =P ..

This event is also the debut even of ma new toy (new camera, a nikon .. it's actually a hand me down from daddy but lol it was oni 2-3 months old when it was "handed down" to me ..) .. still need to get used to the video function..stills were ok.. i got the hang of stabilising enough to get good clear stills ... i felt quite retarded constantly interchanging between this camera and my ole faithful for videos..but lol gotta do what needs to be done? :P

here're the pics that i managed to get ..

here are the fancams :

the whole of last week pretty much just stayed home.. was irritated over some things... and also cos i wanted to prove something so that next week i'd get more leniency for that ONE BIG DAY !! gehehehehe.... foodwise.. so far so good.. got to enjoy some:

nonya zhang,

lo shu fun, (thank you grandma!!)

AND ...... porridge (chu chap zhok! slurp!!) ... goood authentic nonya food (perut ikan, penang assam fish, nasi ulam, otak-otak, ju hu char!!) .. and some good vegetarian! :D

OH OH OH and have you ever seen such a ginormous mangoe!!! =O

Last day! D=

2011-06-07T00:21:00.000+01:00

today's ma last full day in Belfast !! well not last full day as in forever last day... just last day till i fly back to Msia for the summer...gosh i'm kinda gonna miss this place? Gonna miss living alone i suppose..with the utmost freedom to do whatever whenever :P .. (the awesome pawsome internet speed will greatly be missed too!) .. going home to Msia would mean going back to alot ... but that would also means lights out at 2am..

Every year there's always the problem with luggage weight..owh dear lord whyyyyy D= ... oh wait i just realised SIA's luggage allowance is more than 20kg? 25kg is it not? and the oni problem now is BMI offers 20kg only..but hand luggage is really leniant? oh if thats the deal..i can just backpack all/most of the books i wanna bring home to revise for pathobiology (And molecular cell biology? Sigh that one..) ... and when i arrive at Heathrow i'll just chuck that into the check in luggage to make the worth of the extra 5kg? lmfao why did i just blog out my thoughts XD ...

i sound like i'm bringing alot home but no..the stuff i'm bringing home is just heavy -.-" .. oh yes another dilemma i've been having is ma first baby (aka vaio) ... i feel worried for leaving it behind in belfast but at the same time lugging that almost 4kg bigass baby home to Msia is just -.- ... there isn't much point tbh...but the fear of a *touch wood* second break in..even an attempt of worries me.. sigh.........

lost..in a way..kind off ..

2011-06-06T01:22:00.001+01:00

(edit: lmfao again forgot to title entry)

exams are done and done ! :D

biomedical science in practice was .. .. okayh ... it could have been rawk awesome but i only have myself to blame..since i zoned out the first 3 days of the 7 day gap.. same goes for stats..before stepping foot in to the 7 day gap i had all the intention to chiong all the way... and at that point of time it seemed like i needed to or else >.< ...

owh well it's all over.. fingers crossed for the best outcome!!

NOW ... after exams..for some reason the feeling of after exams always leave me feeling lost.. it's like all of the sudden..there're no more immediate commitments..no more pain staking nose grinding buttock power requirement work... sometimes when i sit/lie awake and just think.. i get that really really REALLY lost feeling! but when i'm out or talking with someone (coughAnisCough) ..it feels all in place again..hmm....

anyways..friday evening was spent with Anis.. saturday was spent in town-->some me time-->movie marathon with chloe and danny till late ... and with that... i lost count of how many hours i have been awake.. yes it should be more than 48 hrs.. i'll work that out soon enough ... lol ... which also means.. i fell asleep half way through watching death note 2 (the last movie marathoned) >___< damn that was embarassing? lol wonder if i sleep talked >_______< " .... anywayyyy *SHOVES .... this morning was spent catching up with sleep... good 10 hour sleep... Mmmm yes so good... I did wake up to stream inkigayo but i was still so sleepy i streamed and just let it play while falling back asleep XD i think i did hear b2st come up... perform.. and later win(?) ... but i just continued sleeping XD sorry kikwang sleep comes first :P ... later after waking up was spent house cleaning .."deep house cleaning" ... and really it was DEEP ... well i didn't do much D= .. wish i could have contributed more! ... all i did was thoroughly wiped surfaces.. didn't know we started 2 hrs earlier than the said time !! D= ... then some talk with eunice (shock of ma life !! ) ... then continued cleaning --> cooked dinner --> small replacement belated bday celebration for danny-->continued death note 2 from where we left off from last night .... a little elaboration on dinner (just cos i feel like i miserably failed DX) .... made nasi lemak .. anchovies and peanuts turned out awesome! not burnt one bit ! rendang chicken had too much belacan DX ..when i taste tested it was not too bad..on the salty side but NOT BAD AT ALL ... but when it cooled down at serving i was lik ;_____; .. epic failed .. suddenly i cannot cook rice anymore !! DX .. the rice was undercooked... not enough water.. but i followed the finger measurement rule and even added extra! DX WTF is happening to me!!! >_____<

anyway..2 more days till i leave belfast! omg so soon! .. i remember lamenting with Eunice.. sigh 1 month plus more!! ... now it's like OMG 2 more days! D= i still have so much to do? actually i've done quite the bulk of it. it's mostly cleaning and tidying my room..stowing away things for incase purposes and binning some stuff..at the same time i want to have some quality chill time at home..but at the same time want to see some friends before leaving? arghhh so much to do so little time..

Excited is but a mere understatement

2011-05-27T20:13:00.002+01:00

(lol got so excited i forgot to title this entry at first)

KTHXBAI. .. .. .. /continues crying rivers, monsoons, and floods with Ara

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when Ara tweeted saying how star planet are such "liars! stupid liars!!!" ... i was like O.o ... thinking of all the worse case scenarios possible (and in these sort of events and situations..trust me, i've been involved with first hand experience the most evil cruel imaginable ones) ... then when i opened the twitpic.. i blacked out for a while!! the tickets arrived in Ara's post!!! according to star planer it'd take 3 days..hence the earliest we expect would be next week, monday at earliest.. but no! they had to be efficient and have it arrive today! Ara should now be drunk and knocked out and making her way towards a hangover in the morning (lmfao at me making it sound like she busted her liver, in reality it's only wert.. 3-4 cans of beer? XD)

while i went for a more wholesome means of celebration! :D

(cherry tomatoes were co-incidentally in my fridge i did not plan this)

(yes bella is right, the highlight is not the chocolate but something else coughpenguincough)

the significance of that doshirak would be the unappetizing odd looking lower left object. Tuna pancakes! recipe taken from maangchi.. everything went perfect, only i forgot the garlic :P ... tasted awesome can't wait for lunch again tomorrow to have the leftovers! :)

TERMINATION

2011-05-26T23:39:00.001+01:00

(caution: long entry ahead)

SO:

- First paper , Scientific Methods, which was on 21st (saturday) seemed like a really really really distant memory now... the questions were ALL from the sample questions on the module handbook ! -.-" ... had i just swallowed everything there and nothing else..i could have scored a near perfect. but no .. i decide to study and learn everything the lectures covered..well whatever there was in the lecture handouts..and as a result.. i knew the questions and answers but not 100% .. god bless i get a good mark...

Went for a coffee with Anis in the evening, really glad did that..its always nice talking to Anis, and after that you just feel really light and calm, less tensed.. and with a little help... all nighter cramming all the way till after breakfast set sailed! (there was coffee involved too of course, but it's already so staple, no need to mention?)

the next 2 days leading to Tuesday 24th; which brings the most painful longest and most difficult paper of the semester; Molecular cell Biology .. was nothing less than torture panick and tension. I STRESS ON TENSION ... for the reason not only was there cramming of molecular cell biology to do.. but there was also tension on how to score tickets to B2ST's event !! Tickets go on sale 11am GMT+8 on 25th may..The main concern was the moolah. I had moolah for my ticket BUT in the form of cash which i'd been saving up all year.. paypal wasn't an option for such an amount. Ara could purchase the tickets online BUT she didn't have enough moolah in her card and payday is not till a few days later.. Atlas, thanks to Ara's suggestion of Western Union, all's settled. Well, part of it..Long story short, deciding on which category of ticket to take was a mammoth of a challenge (don't judge it was hard!) .. then uncertainty of whether being able to get the category we wanted and a back up plan (yes we had a back up plan! again don't judge!) .. and had our questions answered (we had LOTS of questions...and again Ara was nice to offer to make so many international calls and get everything cleared up!)

Weather on 23rd was mad.. the winds were blowing so strongly trees were literally bending at right angles! .. i could have gone out to transfer moolah earlier in the morning but the wind deterred (and after an all nighter cramming fest i was practically not alive in the morning) hence fell asleep for a couple of hours( i swear it was A COUPLE like 3 or so) ..then wasn't till nooon i braved the winds and went out..had i done it in the morning Ara could have received it after work or so, could have saved her all the trouble and missing lunch and all..

In the wee hours of 25th may...this was born..1 word ... EPIC ...

( i screamed out loud when fiction's practice video ended and Freeze started playing.. i thought there was gonna be a ssanti dance of Freeze like how there was for VIU after soom's video..THANK GOD It's only a tutorial to the chorus choreography! phew!!)

THEN CAME 24TH: MOLECULAR CELL BIOLOGY DAY ... For that exam, it was the first time that i pulled an all nighter on the eve of an exam, practically no sleep (45 minutes shut eye sitting upright does not count) and headed for an exam..i was so tensed and panicked over it!! the paper was not to say so terrible to the extent i couldn't answer anything..but at the same time it wasn't easy either.. As i was trying to answer the paper as best as i could.. suddenly, the fire alarm rang ! SMACK IN THE MIDDLE! 1.5HRS ON THE DOT into a 3 HOUR EXAM ... at first everyone in the hall tried to ignore it but it was too irritatingly loud.. then when we saw ppl in the minor hall evacuating, everyone in the major hall, my exam venue slowly evacuated as well. This was the first time something like this ever happened, since the invigilators didn't seem to have a clue on how to handle the situation..course when everyone gathered outside they started talking..some started going on their phones..others had notes with them..so when we got back in, it was only natural to have an announcement saying the exam was to be terminated. At that point i didn't know if i should laugh or cry. Laugh that there's a possible chance of a take 2.. or cry for the fact something so horrible is not over!

In the afternoon, emails from the course co ordinator came in saying we have a reshced exam on the 4th june..i was like WTF when i first read it.. cos we have exams on 31st, 2nd and 3rd.. having it on the 4th means 3 exam days in a row.. 4 in the span of 5 days..but i wasn't complaining.. FINE just bring it on, let's get it done with... but then, a few hours later another email came in saying it will not be resat..they're just gonna mark whatever's been collected in our scripts and marked proportionally.. i don't know how fair this is gonna be for me.. i could have written alot more, eventhough i had very limited knowledge but still i could have crapped quite a bit more! argh and my section A was only half aswered??! like dammit..

This is the first time experiencing something like this.. i guess it's something i might not have a chance in experiencing a second time (do not want to btw!) ... hmmm...good experience this is??

Whatever the outcome from 24th i was gonna take that day off.. then 25th morning was spent tension-ing over ticket purchase! which Ara managed to get first call first ring first time! and we got awesome tickets!!! the adrenaline rush that came with the suspense left me smiling like an idiot for a very long time..LMFAO ... shall not elaborate on that.. i've already made myself seem like a pathetic retarded sad case of an idiot enough .. but yahh tickets are settled.. they have been mailed to Ara and should arrive in 3 days! can't wait !!! That cycle of retarded hype and excitement is to repeat again....

OH YESH another thing that happened which i think should be marked and recorded.. news on limited edition of Fiction and Fact.. this limited edition comes with style buttons, a tee, and new pictures... Also, it's got a different poster from the regular version...

Seriously companies need to stop this "release Lim Edi one week after regular version releases" .. have mercy!

Today wasn't too productive..the wee morning was spent watching american idol's finale.. which SCOTTY McCREERY WON!! WOOHOOO!! CONGRATULATIONS SCOTTY! always had an eye out for you since day 1 .. the day i accidentally read you name as McCreepy lmfao .. sorry about that.. and also watching kdrama Lie to Me .. read a few slides of immunology before giving in and napping for a few hours..woke up to the most sjkaglsgla email anyone can send me (OMG R2 OMGGGGGG) .... then the day went on just as regularly as can be! ....

D- less than 24 hours

2011-05-20T21:51:00.002+01:00

Right so i am giving myself a short break that was supposed to end at 9.15pm but got held up till ard 9.25pm? lol ... anyway.....

B2ST RELEASED THEIR MV FICTION AND 1st FULL LENGTH ALBUM!!! ALL WITHIN 12 HOURS !! and no prizes for guessing i got jailed for both the times i went on spasms sprees spazzing lmfao ... more on that later when tomorrow's exams are over? well we'll see...

The past week can be summed up with 2 words:
1) Revision
2) B2ST

YES...B2ST...last week there was news about B2st hitting malaysian shores on july 1st for a fanmeet showcase.. at first i was sceptical since july 2nd would be singapore's event..but yesterday..new released about ticketing and venue was released and today a floor plan released..it all happened so fast! Kelly (Kelly Lim..) and I were talking about all the things we'll do together ... while at the same time i was kinda coaxing Ara to come to Msia instead of attending the singapore event..well tbh there wasn't much coaxing to be done..she herself thought it'd be more fun to attend with Lyn and I (which is true!) lol ..

SO...
- confirmed imma attend this event
- it's just a matter of which ticket
- how to purchase the ticket (or more like who to ask a favour from..it's not a small sum of a CD's cost >.<)

B2ST FANMEETING SHOWCASE IN MALAYSIA 2011

Now back to reality... Exam officially starts tomorrow... it's an okay paper..Scientific methods..can't ask for a better way to start exams... after that there's a 3 day (more like 2.5 day) gap betwee till the next paper, which is Molecular Cell Biology..the killer module of the semester..that i'll crap in ma pants after scientific methods is out of the way..if i ever want the slightest chance of continuing with what i want after finishing this degree i gotta get quite a high average this semester to make up for my current crap average >.<" ... every percent here and the other module counts to make it up!

.AMEN.

it really rained today~

2011-05-13T23:37:00.002+01:00

The past week had been quite smooth..not too eventful, but rather smooth... nothing out of the ordinary...usual revising (which could have gone much faster and more prouctive)..Was off on Wednesday and Thursday.. well pretty much the whole week was off, there weren' any more teaching lectures , monday went in for around 30 minutes to hear some feedback and fill in review forms for Biomedical Science in Practice and Molecular Cell Biology.. Tuesday went in for a revision class which lasted 45 minutes (coffee took too long to get to lecturer again lol) .. Today was revision for Scientific Methods and Stats..

Finally got the chance to meet up with Anis after weeks..talked about loads of stuff as usual, really nice talking to Anis, learnt so much again! :D

went for Spanish at La Tasca..

Started to drizzle when we were on our way to walk home, then it started to pour, like really pour, just like how KL would be ... good thing it didn't last long.. around 10 minutes or so it stopped ...guess this is my taste of friday 13th? bussed home ( so didn't make a diff if rain stopped or not lol) ..i bussed with Anis all the way to the tesco stop, then headed in to Tesco to get my week long supply of juice before heading home ..

Oh interesting enough we have duct tape on our freezer door.. apparently the ice in the freezer's so thick, the door can't close, to the extent ice cream melts! This made me think back of last year in Elms, when Warren defroze the freezer with bowls and pans of hot water .. memories~ ~ .. lol ...

NOW ... a lil bit of fandom ...
1) GOING UKISS'S SHOWCASE !!! with Lyn and Awatif ! Awatif is not skipping work but Lyn is gonna skive work! Thank god she is gonna skive work and accompany me the whole day.. since Kelly is not going for the event, I have trasportation issues .. sigh ...

CAN'T WAIT !!

2) B2ST <3
A couple of days ago CUBE released concept photos of the new album, B2ST's first full length album; Fiction and Fact...

THEN... one of the songs were released..

then this morning, The TEASER! what fraking teaser is 2 minutes 39 seconds long! XD

CUBE.THE.MASTERMIND

nuff said...

this morning, woke up to news about b2st going to msia july 1st.. ticket sales go out tomorrow.. it's just too sudden of news! can't wait to get more information on this whole matter.. apparently it is quite legit since ERA FM is the one that released this news.. but i still feel it's too fast! ... singapore's date is july 2nd while thailand is a week after.. 8th or so.. it would make sense for a date somewhere in between those 2 dates.. but not july 1st... i would feel so heart ached if the date is indeed july 1st..but then again.. i would still go .. all in all .. july .. no better timing! if it was august i would be farking pissed... this time around i am more aware of b2st.. no more like last year i went for the sake of going, and wanting to see seob irl .. i still want to see seob.. but this time with all the awareness and fangirlness in me.. argh ..

ONE

2011-05-07T21:23:00.000+01:00

I let March pass with ONE entry

I let April pass with ONE entry

What will happen this May?

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April was quite a whirlwind..the first half was spent rushing dissertations and assignments.. 2 dissertations, 1 practical essay and 1 statistics assignment.. and lots of sakura LOL .. to the extent i was like O.o sakura?! ._____. when asked out for sushi... but i went with in the end..heh who says no to sushi? and good sushi! LOL ...

oh yes, one of the days, can't remember which auspicious day it was... made curry mee ! ^_____^ ... very perasan of myself to say this .. but i am awesome :P .. my only critic to this is that went overboard on the cocunut milk/evaporated milk ... for future reference, DECIDE ON ONE .. don't be greedy/indecisive and use both LOL ...

the second half of april was spent revising, revising and more revising..the first week went quite well..warm up meant slower pace but still productive enough for me to not lock myself in ze store room under the stairs and cry.. finally watched "one litre of tears" the drama..with housemates.. i was the only one who did not shed a tear watching this drama! shall not go into detail but lol i NEED to watch it one more time to test myself LOL ... second week didn't pick up as i would have preferred but still good i guess.. had a first experience of camping out in the library..pulled an all nighter there..tiring, productive.. but a good experience.. third week is the most abnormal of all 3 weeks? well in weeks 1 and 2.. i don't know why but it was just so easy for me to wake up early in the morning..like a normal being! but after that all nighter in the library, where i came home and napped till around 2-ish pm.. that was when i went back to not seeing morning anymore..i would be all awake and alert right till around 7am...sometimes 8am..but after that i just couldn't sit up right anymore..no matter how much i tried...hmm..definitely gotta set it right this weekend before lectures resume on monday...

and lately..i've a new addiction..coffee.. lol yes i know that it's no secret but it's .. .. .. designer coffee... ie starbucks.. okayh it's NOT much of an addiction..i'm perfectly happy with my sachets of Old town nanyang white coffee and/or aik cheong 2 in 1 coffee sachets...

it's actually this :

only starbucks sells it.. so when i go pick up my daily fix.. i'll think..Mmm why not .. since i'm already there..and get my usual of a caffe latte.. sometimes when i feel like treating myself i'll go for a frapp or a white caffe latte (Mmmmmm.....) ...

first 7 days of May has officially come and is almost gone..with only slightly less than 3 hrs left of it.. which means 14 days till first exam paper.. this time around no solid 3 hour paper per module.. 2 of the modules are separated into 2 papers..only molecular cell biology is still a painstaking 3 hour paper..i don't feel as shitty as last semester..prolly cos this time around not all 3 of the subjects are so hardcore heavy..only molecular cell biology is a pain in the ass heavy..the other 2 are . .. ... nicer :) .. .so to say..

i guess that's all for this rare entry for now.. oh yes happy news..i'm going home on the 8th june! home as in msia home .. belfast home is awesome..wouldn't have it any other way...but i DO miss freshly prepared sugarcane juice upon order!! XD

happy April 바보 DAy XD

2011-04-01T22:59:00.002+01:00

since the last entrty...following 10 days has been.. hell but fun version...in those 10 days i actually missed doing homework LOL...

what happened is MALAYSIAN NIGHT... i was incharge of publicity.. meaning letting as many ppl know about the event as possible,,,but somehow .. i got dragged into helping with props and deco..and that was how my nights were spent leading up to malaysia night, which was held on the awesome day of march 26th 2011, held in our humble Students' Union. Was also involved in a committee performance..danced to jaiho..enjoyable times... pictures pictures pictures! ^___^

Anis... (ps Anis, A is NOT for ayam goreng, A is for AWESOME) me and chloe in jaiho mode :)

Eunice, li xian, shereen :)

People ! people ! people ! thanks for coming <3

the very professional "serve from left like royalty" PC :)

i helped paint those stuffs :)

i just HAD to XD

Eunice's brilliant idea, credits to novena for helping me see the beauty of it if you think of it as a film strip :)

This is how it ended :)

AWESOME AWESOME CArmen <3

this is what i managed to get ... on the event itself.. didn't actually get to watch much of any of the performances..before event was busy with raffle ticket sales..only managed to slip in for appetizers and main course of nasi kerabu..after that had to go round selling raffles before it was time to change for performing..owh well.. i guess i wouldn't have had it any other way..it was all good fun :) .

The next day, finally had house dinner again... been wanting to make kerabu mangoe for soooo long ... was so glad had the chance to after sooo lonnggg... kinda regret not taking a pic to blog but lol we had guests XD ... over dinner, watched the videos used in Malaysian Night, that was a real consolation (danny did an awesome job!) .. pity couldn't see all the other performances, the lion dance, the kungfu guy, the silat couple D= ..... oh the best part is, the raffle draw.. i bought the raffles but didn't get the chance to check, so.... had i been lucky that night... but gaahhh . it's for charity... charity's about giving..all these gimmick "concert to raise funds for charities" and similar activities... i still DO NOT understand you..

the past few days which made up this week..i regret to say that i didn't get much revision done.. BUT BUT BUUUUTTTT ... did get dissertations started...tuesday was my most wasted day..finished at 11am but all i achieved lunch, online, and tidying room.. epic fail D= ... it was chloe's bday too on tuesday..had to attend Medsin's global health short course talk so didn't attend her celebration dinner...well the way it worked out to be like this is sort of for the better i think..well when she came home eunice (who couldn't make it as well) joined for cake and a song :) ...

then came wednesday..spent in town..all for kikwang's bday.. wanted to get him something more significant but just ended up with frozen yoghurt.. how unconventional? XD ... but anyway..yahh time just flew by!!

then.... jjeng jjeng jjeng...... the day i am old enough to register for voting and enter a casino! LOL ... and i am proud to say that i spent my special thursday very productively :) .. got things sorted out, among others...came home and thought i'd just starve till it's time for lunch the next day..really couldn't be bothered to buy dinner home ( wasn't really looking forward to MSG loaded takeaway food) .. and cba to cook myself..but then Eunice came knocking and invited me out for sushi :) ... thank you for buying me dinner Eunice <3 and also for that extra card and box of cookies <33

came home (got locked out for like 2 minutes ) to all the housemates waiting to spring me a surprise i smelt the burning candles btw but didn't want to bust you all and spoil it XD) ... i have to say i'm really glad it turned out how it turned out to be :) really really liked it.. and surprised (expected but didn't expect it like so, hence the surprise factor was still really fully there.. LOL it's actually quite hilarious haha XD) .... cake(home made, thank you Chloe and Danny) ... present, song, the whole package ... thank you all my awesome housemates, Chloe, Danny, Eunice, Ken ... thank you! <3

(lumpy the elephant not included)

Bad bAd baD

2011-03-16T11:42:00.001Z

yes it's bad, terrible even when you don't blog so often.. and when you DO blog an entry again.. you can't remember what happened in your life since your last entry you need to flip the sched to check!

trying to squeeze a quickie update here before class.. well the past 20 days has been lazy..packed...lazy and packed... korean class ended last week (9/3 being the last class).. gonna miss it.. hope next semester there'll be a level 2.. or else imma rob a convienent store and buy myself a clarinet and join the orchestra! hahah xD

was meant to celebrate 2(3) march babies' bdays.. couldn't make it for carmen's..made it for yi wern and jay's .. happy birthday to the two awesome march babies! tony romas was the setting ... and to those who think "go tony romas must order steak" .. THEY DO GOOD SALMON TOOOO!! XD

got myself a new toy!! climax of the semester prolly... it started out with wanting a humble netbook..then daddy was like "why get atom??get la one of the new i processors" .. so i chose a small laptop with an i3 processor (price played a role see) ...then dad was like "i3 where got powerful enough" ..mind you i complained abt laptop crashing a few times in the span of 2 weeks and it's a universal fact of how jittery and panicked and scared and fail to function when any of my gadgets go haywire (ok maybe not all i don't get like that when mp3 players/ipods fail me .. but I WILL CRY THEN JUMP OFF A BUILDING if anything happens to ma HDD be it internal or external) ... and SO ... i chose an ASUS ...then dad came and started brainwashing me with macbookpros..i kept my stan on how they are overpriced and expensive but mum wouldn't hear of it! now CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT! ... like shuu said "never say no to rezeki" ... hahahaha... i love this wife...

say hie to my new toy "pabo" XDD

mum went phone shopping on sunday since she needed a new phone... and guess what phone she bought... SONY XPERIA X10 WHITE ONE SOME MORE.. you can imagine my disbelief when i was told.. i was like *looks at mini and tears`* .. lmfao no la.. i am happy with my mini.. it's just WHAT ARE THE ODDS MAMA CHOSE X10 and not one of the later models like X8 or something!!

been shopping alot too lately!! after feb 20th..carted A LOT .. it's lke 3 times more than what i carted in the whole of semester 1? LOL was so scared i'd be questioned but passed feb fine..now march is another round.. owh the uncertain fear....... oh and also.. i love it how there are so many march babies around..celebration after celebration <33 ... but the thing about being last march baby of the month.. i prolly only have enough (maybe even need to rob again!) to afford chicken eggs when it comes to that turn .. haha but it's all fun.. wouldn't have it ANY OTHER WAY .. :))

should start finding socks and make my way out now.. will flip the sched later and update with pictures when i finish my day... OH BTW tomorrow's ST PATRICK'S DAY! no school! happeee ... really need to make use of this precious day off and start and hopefully get through like half of BOTH dissertations and start the other practical essay.. start at least!! and also bombard Dr Eilish with a two metre long email asking for practice questions and essay write up!

20 days later....

2011-02-25T02:27:00.003Z

and i'm still the same kellyfish who could benefit good from not being so attached to her gadgets ...

a few hrs ago.. i suddenly had the idea of reviving my ipod classic..it's been months (a year plus maybe?) since i properly used it.. everytime i's just charge it .. and then have it discahrged again before properly making use of it.. i blame having music from the laptop 24-7 (well anytime i want when i'm at home) and when i'm out i rarely listened to music (last year) and this year (since sept 2010) got a ipod shuffle to listen to when i walk to class/town/wherever.... hence, the ipod classic has been further sent to cold storage..

back to the point...

i was happily arranging playlists when itunes suddenly failed to response.. i thought it was just itunes being gay..but SUDDENLY i was met with the blue screen of death (no really i doubt it is the spyware symptom blue screen of death) .. i was like okaayyyhhhhh like the screen said "if first time seeing this screen, restart com after it reboots" .. so i did... after doing that..during second attempt to rearrange playlists... THE SAME BLOODY THING HAPPENED AGAIN .. this time i was quite certain that the culprit was the darn ipod classic..so right after laptop rebooted that second time.. immediately ejected the cursed device (proper way of course) and since then..lappy has been working fine..a while later i decided to see how much battery got charged in that short ordeal..and GUESS WHAT I SAW : 16+ GB SPACE LEFT .. but ZERO songs..ZERO vids..ZERO pics... HOW FREAKY IS THAT.... i want to plug it in again and restore or factory reset of something.. but i don't dare >.< ..well not now at least..once i'm done transferring all i can and back up my music collection..i'll reattempt...not now..

AND i'm finally on my last 500gb of HDD Space... sad..scary..insane..yes i agree to it all ... while transferring stuff ..amazon-ed to see what the prices are for buffalo pieces and also the market price nowadays..and i have to say it's quite reasonable.. well like 60% of what i paid last year for a seagate.. right now in the HDD family (omg family!) there's a samsung, WD, seagate, and hitachi .. my very first HDD was a maxtor ..thought i'd get a buffalo this time around, if the need for one arises sooner than expected.. really hope this last 500gb can last till i get home..at least.. do not need another reason/excuse to spend money...

let's see what else if (not) new in life.... oh i passed 2 modules this semester.. out of 3.. shall not type out what happened to the 3rd module..go figure.. but i'll say this.. the module was the pathobiology module..very the ironic..this was the module i spent most time on..did past papers properly as in prepared model answers and all.. but ..... .... ... when i received the results my first thought was .. damn there goes the summer, there goes all hopes of going home..there goes it all..but mum and dad were really supportive..talking me through that what's done is done..just make sure i do good this time around and come back earlier to resit.. deep down i know i disappointed them damn badly...i felt like drowning myself too .. i felt so pathetic.. inferior, lowlife, parasite, outcast, diseased.. ya you get the picture.. talking to shuu helped.. but still couldn't really get over it.. still haunted when i think back abt it..but gotta move on!! and MORE irony to life.. the paper i was so sure i would highly not pass was the paper that i scored highest among the 3 papers..that "high" mark is nothing to shout about..really it's crap but IRONIC YO

so plan till/for summer would be:
- live the carpe diem life and work crap ass hard that would make 30.3.1990 fella look like a lazy bum (hmm why sound so familiar lol)
- prepare for 3+1 exams
- go home as early as possible
- fly back for resit

all i want is to be able to go home ...............

at least won't be alone going for resits.. sarah didn't make it through molecular genetics..so on resit day at least i'll have someone to go through with...after resits there's a whole month before year 3... sarah came out with the idea of the few of us going on a trip to europe..probably spain? let's see how that goes..

right... school (already in uni 2nd year 2nd sem but i'm calling everything school lol) .. today marks the end of week 4.. need to get things started and going!
- START making proper notes (random sheets i've been doing don't count)
- START reading properly (includes school material + self help + novels + etc ... like seriously! what happened to that reading bug in me.. i used to devour agatha christie in 3 days per novel!)
- START essays and dissertations (this sem there's 2 essays and 2 dissertations..learnt my lesson from last semester leaving that immunobiology essay to the last 10 days coupled with 2-3 reports was NOT fun )

there...guess i've got things ironed out ... shall work towards it all this weekend..

oh yesh how can a kellyfish update be complete without a lil food update..i've been cooking very little this year..one reason or the other..but after a few requests/reminders from farah.. decided to make an effort once again ... and the result was this ! chobap! all it requires is stuffing sushi rice into the tofu pocket ..it's that simple!

it's been a very long time since i've spazzed B2ST fandom here but here goes...

.... ... ..

LOL i actually took a few deep breathes to try to coherent myself to try to spazz here.. .lol ... basically it is beyond awesome..everything of it.. joker..kikwang...EVEERY NANO SECOND OF IT IS GENIUS ... gotta hand it to CUBE... .very mastermind! ... lol pardon the pun ..

oh yesh...since we're on the fandom topic.. U-KISS WILL NO MORE HAB KIBUM AND XANDER... early yesterday..news broke that xander and kibum will be leaving ukiss.. the transaltions to tweets and cyworld entry of kibum are everywhere..just google it.. xander hasn't tweeted since.. owh gosh as much as i don't have a ukiss bias..but KKB and xander are like the essence of UKISS? well not like all the 7 idiots don't give to the uniqueness that makes up UKISS.. but still member changes are never good..damn all/most of my bias groups are always facing something like this..first was sunghee leaving KARA..then wonbin leaving FTi ... then the whole DBSK -JYJ issue.. and now THIS! forever ( and never have) will i regret my stubbornness of believing that everything happens for a reason, i so happen to get xander's autograph on my poster when it was my turn, i just refuse to swap even if at that time, the only reason i was interested in going to see UKISS last june was because of dongho via makbanshi and it was from there that i knew UKISS existed...and also no regrets for spending extra on xander getting him that monkey plush..and no regrets for picking him out of all the 7 idiots to request for "kellyfish" to be written on the album ...

THE HIGHLIGHT OF FEBRUARY has got to be receiving Bella's gift and note!! it arrived on CNY eve... perfect timing! <3 ... bella's gift is a sling and i have officially named it "india mali" XD ,,, pic of it shall come later ~ thank you bella thank you so much.. don't often get things/stuff like this.. very rare in my life..you have no idea how much i appreciate it ~

roller coaster ride 2011

2011-02-05T00:59:00.001Z

(you know when "life" gets monotonous/sad when you start an entry before titling it not cos you can't decide how to title it but DO NOT KNOW WHAT to title it with LOL)

right...so first week of semester two has come and gone..it went pretty well imo..the pace picked up at the very first lecture..no "introductory slack" ...went straight into the detail and hardcore topics..no complaints or anything..that's how it should be aite? (lol self delusion) .. all 3 modules had almost the same head on start..now that i've been introduced and started at all 3 modules..looks like mol cell biology is gonna be the heaviest module(no prizes for guessing) ..i think imma have to tie the other 2 modules..equally wide..equally general/vague..equally challenging!!

and it looks like we can look forward to many home cooked tuesday lunches as the semester progresses? well on tuesday we have a 3 hr break between lectures so i invited sarah and lisa over to cook something for lunch instead of finding some cafe to hang around .. made pasta and spanish chicken..lol i went abit shy with the chicken prep so lisa did it .. tasty tasty lunch there :) ..

this wed was refresher's bazaar.. took morning shift in helping man the mssni booth.. good experience :) there's a cny open house event coming up on the 12th at elms..hopefully loads of ppl turn up :D

OH YESH GONG XI FA CAI!! wish everyone a prosperous new year full of good luck and happy days <3

1st day of cny ..attempted making "lap mei rice" .. from this adventure i can conclude.. THE KEY INGREDIENT IS WAXED DUCK..the one i made tasted like regular claypot rice..it tasted good ..but still mehh..the cny feel is not there .. =| ..

2nd day of cny (today) ... sugar cane drink! LOL i would've made mee suah but it's just illogical when there's still leftover "Lap mei rice" in the rice cooker and i don't think i'll be eating it again till sunday?

went shopping today..forgot to get half the things i wanted to get LOL .. but splitting it up into 2 trips would be better..i'd look like a shopaholic going home with too many bags had i remembered everything and done it all LOL .. plus it's quite psycologically disturbing and depressing to see the sterling disappear quite an amount in one day LOL ..

oh one thing i notice.. i have been bloggin VERY LITTLE fandom related stuff ...almost none here..blame twitter..lol..shall dwell on that after i've actually done some reading haha...

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OH I PASS MOLECULAR GENETICS! did crap ass bad..worst out of 3 semesters so far? but omg i am so glad i passed! that's all that matters now! moving on is all that matters! hopefully i'll be blessed with this luck for the next 2 modules as well ( i must >.< ) .. do not want to repeat the year..costs too much in all perspectives..fingers crossed!

new beginning, first, second, and partial reflection

2011-02-01T08:27:00.000Z

GOOD MORNING SECOND DAY OF SEMESTER 2/1ST FEB 2011 AND HAPPY FEDERAL TERRITORY DAY ALL OF WILAYAH PERSEKUTUAN <3

should have blogged earlier..like the day day exams ended AT LEAST ...but lol blame procrastination, laziness, and "there's always tomorrow" (lol okayh that's procrastination too but it sounds more positive put this way LOL) ...

my last entry was before pathobiology exam..it went okayh..but IF ONLY I SWALLOWED THE PAST YEAR PAPER AND SAMPLE QUESTION ARGHHH!!! i could have done so much better had i done that..molecular genetcs, i expected to be slayed and killed alot worse..i didn't do awesome..but i hope i can pass :) .. immunobiology was the toughest paper for me..i think it's cos i spent most of my time cramming for pathobiology and molecular genetics..i quite neglected it.. i was so at wits ends during the last 30 minutes of the exam while rounding up and finalising answers i started calculating how much it'd take to repeat a semester/year! how crappy! but dammit i really just want to let it pass and start afresh with this new semester.. i know i've been saying since the start of A level but like seriously this semester's gonna be different... ._.

one of the days did a bit of reflection..emo-ed ..cried..yah we shall dwell on that later..

oh a word of advice, and something i've learnt PERSEVERANCE BABEH seriously..if you want to find something/get something done..DO NOT AT ALL COST stop and give up until it's done! go all out! it's blissful achievement joy when it's done

during that 10 days of break before start of semester 2.. caught up with most of the dramas..i am legend..my princess, dream high..secret garden! slept too..which means didn't get to start athena and It's okay daddy's girl.. also haven't started on my "project" i still hope to start though :)

first day of semester 2 year 2 started yesterday..i have to say it went quite smoothly...may today and the days to come run as smooth..

more mindless ranting after class aye? bye for now~

OFFICIAL

2011-01-10T03:01:00.000Z

I THINK IT IS SAFE TO SAY THAT I AM OFFICIALLY FREAKED OUT AND STRESSED

30HRS 30 MINUTES TO PATHOBIOLOGY EXAM AND I STILL FEEL VERY EMPTY

i've been cramming mind you, but my head doesn't feel any smarter? no i'm not being conceited all i want to do now more than anything else is just lie in bed and escape reality..mind you i've done that twice already which ended up in excess sleeping...fuck this lousy situation i am damn well aware that second year results will decide whether i get a crap ass project or a fuckyeah awesome project for next year...second year also means you cannot fail..if you fail and need to resit no matter how well you do in resits you'll only get the minimum 40% ..

damn i don't want a crap ass project neither do i want resits...the only time i did a resit was AS physics and chem and that wasn't cos i failed but i wanted a better grade (Which i did manage for physics) .. dammit i also want to do well for the the sakes of landing my butt in singapore (preferably NUS as a long term goal, short term goal being able to get an internship there and have another glorious summer!) ... and also for the sakes of my ai bien /considered kiasu nature... FUCKHELL LET EVERYDAMN QUESTION BE TO MY FAVOUR PLEASE I SWEAR I WILL HAVE SECRET AND KIKWANG AS MY ROLEMODELS NEXT SEMESTER AND BE WORKING SO HARD I MAKE SECRET AND KIKWANG LOOK LAZEE PUTTOGETHER! (I know i said at the start of after finishing all the rushing for reports and essays that i'll make kikwang look like a lazy bum..well i didn't exactly do that but i worked alot harder compared to last year's xmas hols..) .... PLEASE GOD LET ME GET THROUGH THIS WITHOUT FAILING DX

GOOD MORNING!!

2011-01-07T07:47:00.000Z

GOOD MORNING!!!!

it's now 7.23am.. and yes i've not gone to sleep! ... i know i should start getting my biological clock back to normal.. it's been 2 weeks since i've last been awake at 9.30am?? and exams are at 9.30am??! ... i swear this sat sun and monday i'll be awake at normal human time and sleep at normal human time starting from tonight onwards..

cramming could have gone better..keep getting distracted..first it was links of temptation's marathon (asianeu just HAD to someway get hold of the DVD version of the drama and upload all the way till final ep! thank you btw!!) .. then it was camp rock 2 final jam..then it was come to play (b2st 's in it) subbed..then it's we are dating ep4 subbed completely... wonder what wonderful distraction will come today...

SO ........ status of cramming...i'm dead worried for molecular genetics!!

first paper up on tuesday is pathobiology..well i've given every lecture a read through once at least..some twice..it hasn't sunk in properly..but at least i know what i'm facing.........so..........the revised plan now would be; later after this entry imma finish off the remaining 2 lectuers of haematology..then music bank..then after that..go cook some food; tofu to be exact, (goes off tomorrow and i don't want to waste although i'm not in the mood to cook..)...then shower..then start reading detail! starting with haematology, then till 8pm ish sleep..then 10pm till dawn virology..the whole of saturday would be bacteriology and pathology.. PLEASE LET THIS PLAN GO SMOOTHLY T_T ..i really want everything to be read at least, by 0000hrs sunday! ... then that leaves me sunday and monday to sink everything in nicely, maybe randomly read some molecular genetics... i'm so unprepared for the paper!! damn effing unprepared >.< !!! ....

in between after pathobiology there's a week..and a day's gap between immunobiology and molecular genetics..but i doubt i'll be able to cram everything during then..immunobiology is an evening paper so i guess you can say there's a 1.5 day gap between immunobiology and molecular genetics..but still!! .>.< ... plus there'll be a revision class on monday for molecular genetics..i want to at least know the overview and not go clueless!!

-AMEN THAT ALL GOES WELL AND I MAKE IT OUT ALIVE-

happier stuff

MADE KIMCHI JJIGAE AND GYERANMALYEE FOR WEDNESDAY'S DINNER! :D oh yes, and bean sprout salad too :)) .. all turned out well.. just that it's a mystery how the onions turned into looking like spring onions after being cooked XD ... owh well .. i'll use a non red onion next time? XD

just realized i forgot abour the kimchi jjigae..haha owh well.. next time :)

It was a jap-kor theme for dinner on wed... ken made sushi on his part of the jap theme... and LOADS were made! :D all very very yummy!! :)

shit happens, and shit happens

2011-01-02T16:07:00.000Z

sometimes i wonder if i'm living in permanent misery... gosh please just cos i don't laugh with you doesn't mean i'm not happy...just cos i don't smile with you doesn't mean i'm troubled and depressed... it's just that there's nothing to smile or laugh with you about..and i dont' want to force or fake it.. and let's be frank..telling you that truth will just hurt and make everything terrible and awkward for both parties... and it's not my fault or me being difficult...it's you who don't/refuse to understand..needing to have everything your way that makes it like this..

all i ask is to leave me alone and let me be..trust me, i won't let myself fail in life cos that's what i'm most afraid of and definitely won't let happen...

oh and... i suspect a certain planned surprise..please don't i don't want any shit surprise ... just stay where you are.. and let me be.. this surprise i'm suspecting is the LAST THING I WANT EVER... it'll ruin my mood, not make it any better, like how you imagine/plan it to be.. it won't be a nice thing to do.. i won't appreciate it. thank you.

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phew that felt good...so last night was not a cramming success...too much of distractions..i'm thinking of using today until monday afternoon for immunobiology/mol genetics cramming; condensed version..then after that onwards cram pathobiology hardcore...wondering if i should go library on wednesday..i'll prolly meet denise there..hmm..let's see about that later ... now i gotta go shower before water runs out..haha... taps in the house were like splurting and being inconsistent when we turned them on to use after lunch..let's just hope it's just a case similar to those pesky air bubbles in pipettes that ruin your accuracy and fail your experiment results XDD ... bye~yeomm

HAPPY NEW 2011 !

2011-01-02T00:05:00.001Z

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

(i'm starting this entry a few minutes before midnight so by the time i finish it'll most likely be jan 2 but whateve r XP ....)

Dammit it's already 2011 !! which means..... FIRST EXAM IN 11 DAYS AND I AM SHIT PREPARED!!!! ARRRGGHHHHHHHHH BLOODY HELL DAMMIT!!!

okayh back to reality (lol like what i just said in the line above wasn't reality -.-" ...)

Before 2010 ... January 1 always meant celebrations part 2 after christmas..NOW it just means shitting bricks in the dead of night and being all stressed out and pressured on exams looming like 10 days later or so...i know i should have been consistent in work as the semester progresses and HEY it's not like i didn't try and make an effort BUT ASK YOURSELF how easy is that! i do feel guilty...how many times already i've said the same thing but never managed to pull through..after SPM..after AS ..after A2.after sem 1 year 1..after sem 2 year 1 / summer... DAMNNIT I FEEL LIKE DROWNING MYSELF NOW DX ...

Actually, i do believe in miracles and i believe that i CAN make miracles...IF i manage to mug and cram WITH focus.... see there are 10 days left to pathobiology with the first paper, so IF i start like NOW and cram immunobiology like mad after i finish this entry and updating some pictures..then after house cleaning tomorrow mad ass cram molecular genetics till monday morning..then after breakfast monday morning onwards start mad ass cramming pathobiology till exam time, i should be able to pull through that paper.. then when i come back from pathobiology, i have 6 days till immunobiology and molecular genetics, i can split 3 days cramming for each..immunobiology, it's easier to cram..but molecular genetics..shit it's gonna be hell DX ...

ALRIGHT SAD (TRUE) STORIES ASIDE... HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! and please don't ask me what my new year's resolutions are because i don't believe in resolutions.. i believe that you should always have perseverance in every single day no matter what shit comes your way.

merry christmas!

2010-12-27T14:30:00.002Z

LOL this entry is a little late for "merry christmas"... lol blame bitter cold and procrastination..

oh it's been raining continouesly for more than 24 hrs already i think..for the first time (in my life i think?) i've never been happier for it to rain! .. rain = snow melts = temperatures rise by a good deal (10 degrees average!!) = no bitter pitiful cold = kellyfish can function properly!! :D ... tell me that doesn't call for a public holiday celebration haha XD
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events that happened after the last entry on the 18th ... rushed assignments and essays.. did crap for the last molecular genetics report of the semester but GLAD it's over..should've started mass ass cramming that would make kikwang look like a lazy bum on 22nd onwards..but i slacked damn shitz..i mainly blame the bitter bitter pitiful cold (okayh i'm exaggerating but it was freaking -12 deg cels we are talking abt!!) .. so a few times i brought the laptop to bed and hid under covers but that didn't help at all..dozed off in like an hr's time.. and didn't wake up 7-8 hrs later..it wasn't that i couldn't wake up..i DID WAKE UP but it was so cold it was SOOOOO HARD to get out from under the covers.. so yah epic fail; that...incase you're wondering why i didn't get the work done in the morning/before night if that's the case, THERE IS NOT MUCH DIFFERENCE between -12 and -6 deg celsc :) .. okayh maybe it's more bearable during the day (yes it is) .. but getting up to a late start from reluctance of cold cold mornings, followed by hot of the cable tv drama(2 eps per day), a shower and the daily mandatory skype session does eat up most of the day/evening..

christmas eve night was barred from work at all.. happily celebrated by watching 21 on eve night with the house..followed by late lie in on xmas morning, opening presents from awesome housemates, then started xmas dinner prep at 3pm..was tiring but was loads of good good fun :) weird me took pictures of course, not NOT of the process of prep..but the leftover food XD .. the rational sane reason was cos i had my hands dirty during prep and DO NOT WANT vegetable skin gunk on my xperia! haha XD invited eileen, shereen and novena over for the dinner and it made it all the more fun :) .. pictures shall be up later..it's in ze xperia mini and the usb's taken up by the charger now :)

OH OH the EPIC HIGHLIGHT of 24th DECEMBER WILL HAVE TO BE JACINTHA'S PACKAGE ARRIVING!! we both didn't expect it to arrive so soon..since the post office told her it won't arrive till after xmas..due to the bad snow and weather.. but IT DID ARRIVE AND THE TIMING WAS MAD ASS PERFECT <3 ..

NOW.. PRESENTS PARAGRAPH (lol)
lisa and i exchanged gifts early on on last day of semester..well i won't see her after that haha ... thanks for the pretty flower pictures and warm cosy socks lisa <3

Eunice got me a soobak pillow! a big round soobak pillow!! i was like =O OMG AKSJGFLKJAS WHEN I SAW IT XD never expected to be presented with anything soobak XD .. lol i can imagine if my birthday was in the summer i'd get a bday cake in the form of a candle stuck into a watermelon?? haha XD that'd be something out of the ordinary? haha XD (i'm NOT hinting anything btw)~ thank you eunice <3

chloe presented me with an awesome cute mug with a coaster~ it's got a snowman on it~ reminds me of the snowman mug with lid i got from aunt a few years ago~ ahhhh that really gave me a warm fuzzy feeling when i unwrapped it and saw what was in it... thank you chloe <3

In the morning when we all went down to the living room danny was like (as he microwaves muffins for everyone) .. " =| ... didn't really get you all anything..sorry...have this instead /shys ... but he actually did get everyone something!it some toy/game thingy... it's like a tamagochi (virtual pet) ... only that it's pure playing with it? lol not too sure how to describe it..but it's damn cool..it's like this big community, each cube has a motion sensor so when you join it all up they can interact and go to each other's cube and start kicking shins and beheading and all (lol not all are that violent of course, they party innocent too XD) .. thank you danny <3

Ken presented everyone with a really nice card ~ thank you ken <3

boxing day was spent waking up late, having leftover-food-from-xmas dinner lunch, house cleaning, and that was it! .. the rest of the day spent gooood hours revising bacteriology..finished B1-B4.. the more important lectures, the B4-B8 is more of FYI based.. so i'll do that when i need my brain to be further more compact and burts eventually ._. ... was supposed to cram in immunobiology as well since i've been slacking the 22nd-24th .. but bacteriology took longer than expected due to distractions LOL ... shall aim to work faster today..hopefully can cover a good amount of pathology and some immunobiology..i really want to stick to this sched and follow through!! >.< HWAITING!!!!!

Last and First day

2010-12-18T02:06:00.000Z

Fuck shits really.. fuck shits... so much for "step by step" .. a little at a time .. i say nothing's changed.. the reign is still the same if not tighter. .. suffocation is an understatement.. the blame d for keeping quiet and keeping from and going against...... stop for a while and think for a minute what caused/spurred it.. if understanding and compromise was involved it would not turn out like this definitely.. in movies/dramas we wee criminal suspects on bail having to report in everyday? well that's life more or less.. which sucks balls...not deserving it would be too unfair against me but damn i don't need this scrutiny especially when it comes to forgetting how a petty random item costs ..

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kayh shoves emo moment out of the way...

so i didn't persevere that much and ended up awake for 3 days just to complete final immunology report and essay all in one shot... slept a few hrs that monday night (Or shall we say tuesday morning) .. then tuesday onwards till friday been having a few hrs of sleep each night..one of the nights had an atrocious 8 hours of sleep...talk abt time wasted! LOL

the week had not been too productive.. most productive i have to say's thursday afternoon when i chiong-ed the immunology report in 3 hrs and fixed the bed frame .. haha..

Tuesday was onew's birthday! and to celebrate.. all my meals of the day was chicken involved! :D

on wednesday, XIah duckbutt Junsu's birthday..finally bought my flute..well i purposely chose that day actually... things are always "born" on that day for me...

15/12/2007 - ipod classic was born

15/12/2010 - Flute was born!

jaejin's birthday just ended a few hrs ago for my timezone.. i guess the significant thing that happened was that it was last day of semester, lisa and i exchanged xmas gifts (pictures available of course! but not now C= .. ) ..

Those curious about the pizza, watch this:

RIGHT NOW... trying to chiong all the way to dawn and get the immunology essay done once and for all..then start on the supposedly very difficult molecular genetics practical..attendance wasn't compulsory since lots of ppl had trouble getting to uni cos of the snow...so the instructions were emailed to us and we can do it in the comforts of our home and time~ which i took opportunity of X)

New Personal Record

2010-12-13T21:47:00.001Z

As of now, i've been awake and going all the way for 32 hrs 45 minutes. Surprisingly my brain is still quite coherent. Well dozed off a bit while randomly watching drama ep but lol it happens; it was a boring scene XD ..

Today was not too bad..the important topic for today's bacteeriology lecture was the meningitis part, which i was fully awake and alert for, the less important part..healthcare infections if i don't remember wrong.. i wasn't all that focused and listening but heh there's nothing i can't do on my own if i put my donkey mule mind to it :)

Shall be going on all the way till at least 1pm tuesday, and it depends on how much i can get done by tuesday morning before going off for lecture. If i can finish most of the RVH lab report, and get somewhere with the immunobiology essay, then i'll be heading out to the city centre for some last minute shopping for xmas gifts and cards. If not, crawl home and continue to chiong. Just look at the eventful awesome life i have huh... Well either way, after lectures finish at 1pm, it's not like imma come home and sleep..doubt i'll let myself sleep till wednesday evening after korean class.

3 days = 24 x3 = 72 hrs... hmmm... i'm actually not too far off..

After what feels like eternity

2010-12-12T23:54:00.004Z

I'M BLOGGING AGAIN!!!!

The sole reason i've not blogged since is because i was being stubborn on not wanting an entry until i finish CNBLUE's fanaccount. Looks like that has been frozen and dumped into cold storage for now.

Basically what happened after cnblue's showcase in singapore was some last minute preperations, then flew off to london on sept 8th..spent around 10 days there..did the regular tourist stuff and came back to belfast on the 18th, to me new crib! i love this new house to bits really~ imma miss elms and the benefit of not having to be responsible for kitchen cleanliness and hall cleanliness and etc.. but i'd trade that any day to get the awesomeness of this new place :) ( no i don't expect any housemates to read this so it's not buttering up okayh LOL) ..

Some issues occured strategically 2 days before semester started, shall elaborate further if i have absolutely nothing else to do when staying up for 3 nights in a row and feel too GG to cram...and so, 2nd year semester 1 started. I could wish for it to start on a better note to be honest. What happened 2 days ago was so not needed. And i'm pretty sure that's the reason i've not seen or talked to mum since september 30th.

Year 2 Semester 1 - It's scary if you think of it in a way, there are only practicals in around the second half of semester onwards, unlike year 1 when there were practicals for all modules every week from week 1 semester 1 onwards. This year, only 2 modules had constant practicals from week 3 ish onwards. Pathobiology had only 2 "test practicals", meaning we were made guinea pigs to see how effective the sessions are. If they are proven effective for learning, then it'll be added in to the course and be made to count and be compulsory. owh the joys of being a lab rat. Long story short, much more is expected from us and we're even more left on our own, and to think we were already "very on our own"; the way it was in year 1 ( if that sentence made sense)

A few pictures to make this entry less boring. WILL share picture of new room and all once i get this unfair reality called life back on track.

My best purchase in london

FIRST SUCCESSFUL VEGETABLE PANCAKE WITH CHIVES/PRAWNS :)

(this was made when denise and lisa came over for dinner)

First attempt at KIMCHI PANCAKE

(it looks crap cos since only i was eating it and not serving to people i didn't bother making sure it came out pretty and round LOL)

this is how my desktop currently looks like. Yes no fish cake but 30/3/1990 XD

RIGHT NOW. 7 minutes before the beginning of the LAST weeek of official classes of semester 1 year 2. I figured i'd freeze myself the next time it snows if i don't blog at all in semester 1 year 2 of my undergraduate life. All because of stupid stubbornness and procrastination. Definitely not the best decision to make.

Brian ♥ ♥ ♥

2010-07-13T16:19:00.007+01:00

YESH you saw right..brian got 3 hearts .. cos i got an awesome warm full hug from him <3

and YESH I STILL DID NOT HAVE MONEY TO AFFORD TO GO SEE BRIAN BUT I GOT TO GO ANYWAY...ALL THANKS TO STEPHY FOO SOOK LING ... WOMAN YOU ARE INDEED THE BEST SURPRISE I COULD EVER ENCOUNTER

so here's how the story goes:

desperate to go see brian without having to fork out money ( not because i'm stingy with brian, it's cos i really am in such a bad state of poordom) .. i joined 8tvnitelive's pose contest to try for tickets..it was announced on wednesday night that i did not win..but i saw a familar name in the list of winners, "stephy foo" ..i thought i'd just ask if it was the stephy i knew..no harm asking..so i asked. and she said she didn't join the contest.. and that was the end of our brian related convo.. THEN .. a few hrs later .. one of the 8tvnitelive winners contacted me saying she's got a friend selling her ticket, the normal ticket cheap. price negotiable..so of course i showed interest and negotiated! starting price was RM100 but i managed to negotiate RM80..final decision would come the next day since she needed to discuss with her friend..so that was all for the night..

then came thursday evening..
stephy suddenly caught me on msn..asked if i'm free on saturday..i truthfully told her, i'm waiting for that girl to reply me, if she sells me the ticket, i won't be free..then she was like "i give you ticket le?" i was like "SOOK LING DO NOT SHIT ME WITH THESE MATTERS" ... and turns out that the "stephy foo" winner on 8tvnitelive WAS her! her cousin entered the contest with her name! and he's not interested in brian..so he gave her the tickets! and the win is 2 tickets! and she is awesome enough to ask me along! I could have had an immediate heart attack at that very moment! the more heart attacking moment came when she went offline without telling me what time and where in pyramid to meet up.. the even more epic part is that i do not have any means to contact her except msn and facebook.. she studies in singapore, i do not have her singapore contact no, and i'm not sure if she's using the malaysian mobile number that i have of hers. EPIC HEART ATTACK MOMENT FOR ME. everything was so uncertain. am i secured a ticket going to see brian? do i still hold on to the girl selling me the ticket? or do i tell her i'm not interested anymore since i'm already given one by sook ling?then i thought of awatif! she wants to go see brian too..but she's not willing to fork out even the minimum of RM128 .. mainly cos she likes brian but not as much as beast; not enough to willingly spend so much on him..so i asked if she's up for RM80..she said it'll depend..owh well, at least it's still some form of interest =D ..

then friday came..
waiting for sook ling to reply me on FB is damn agonising..it wasn't till i reached home in the evening and checked my pm that i saw sook ling's message header "mianhe...my cousin is going with me......" ... i was like T___________________________T I CAN START CRYING ENOUGH TO FLOOD SELANGOR..... but i understand totally.. her cousin's the one who won the tickets, it's only natural and right for him to go... but i was like DAMN HOW LEH i already told awatif i'm negotiating her that ticket..i could have easily told her the girl would not budge to RM80 and nicely and quietly take the ticket..DAMN FUCKING HELL NO! KELLYFISH MAY BE EVIL BUT NOT THAT KIND OF EVIL ..PFFT only some low life creature of an animal scum would be that evil to friends .... so the whole time, i was thinking, would that girl i'm negotiating with know anyone else selling their ticket last minute?! do i have to bite the bullet and just pay full price buying from rhythm land on saturday itself?!it's so near yet so far, i do not want to miss this chance to see brian! not since situations have become like this... it wasn't till like almost an hour later when i went to reread the message just to hit myself with epic rock bottom sorrow for not being so damn happy for 12 hrs then saddened shit later, that i actually scrolled down to the bottom of the page..

"HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA JK JK YESH I CONFIRM GIVE YOU GAL!!"

I WANTED TO SLAP THAT WOMAN REALLY I WANTED TO SLAP HER FACE RED! of all things to joke about..DO NOT JOKE ABOUT MATTERS OF THIS SORT WEI SERIOUSLY ... i don't think i've gone through such a roller coaster of emotions in a very long time..that moment was just too ecstatic to describe properly...sook ling said she'd call me saturday morning to confirm what time to meet.. i was like -.- woman..your last minute planning skills.. they don't work for me, well at least not in these circumstances..but i'm not complaining, it's epic awesome she's asking me to go with her..the main and most important point from all of this.. HELLO BRIAN I'LL BE MEETING YOU THIS SATURDAY =D
also..managed to seal off the deal with the girl (OKAY it's about time i name her, her name's yi wei ... ) at RM80..it's actually a very good price..on top of ticket, it also comes with poster and merchandise (postcard set) .. since awatif wants the ticket at rm60 .. i decided to give her her prefered price and pay the rm20 difference, but i keep the poster and postcards :) ...

Saturday morning came! i was packing my camera an hr before leaving for pyramid, and TO MY UTMOST HORROR, when i switched on the camera to check, THERE WAS ONLY ONE EFFING BAR OF BATTERY.. i was like WTF i charged it overnight! so i stuffed it back into the charger for the little time i had till it was time to leave the house..it didn't do much good of course, instead of 1 bar of battery i got 2.. -.- .. so when i reached pyramid, first thing i did was check the showcase venue out. the lady there gave me a confused "EEHH??!" look when i walked in so early(3 hrs 15 minutes before showcase time)..she thought i was media too! when i told her i was a fan, she smiled and told me to go shopping first and come back ard 1.30pm..doors won't open till 2pm..so after that went to starbucks to last minute charge as much of my camera battery as i can while waiting for sook ling.. sook ling came and we spazzed about beast in malaysia and beast in singapore..she wasn't a ukiss fan so we didn't talk abt that .. then when it was 1pm we went on to collect the tickets..camera battery showed the full 4 bars but i bet it wasn't 100% charged..owh well..better than nothing..sook ling's win consisted of 2 normal tickets, a set of merchandise (postcards), and a poster autographed by brian..around 15 minutes later a security personel started to clear the entrance and kept on muttering "my artist is coming" .. i thought he was using that to just clear us from crowding the entrance..but soonafter, a bunch of girls started squealing.. i turned towards to squeals to see a group of ppl crossing the road frm pyramid to the entrance..took me a while to come to realisation "OH IT'S BRIAN!" ...LOL seriously .. i would not have noticed if those girls didn't start squealing..THIS CELEBRITY DOES NOT WALK AROUND WITH AN ENTOURAGE can you believe that... unlike beast or u-kiss..wherever they went, there'd be a hoard of security surrounding them...this dude brian joo just walks about like nobody's business, like anyone would accompanied by a few friends. i find this highly awe worthy and i salute this. damn cool.

5 minutes later, kelly, tze mei and yan(?) ( omg i'm so sorry till today i cannot remember your name X) *slaps self* .. ) .. then met up with yiwei ..then awatif! oh, also bumped into the girl i sat next to during u-kiss's fanmeeting..was pretty surprised to see her..i don't know why though..anyways..the whole bunch of us just stood around the door and spazzed..most of us was there cos we were attracted to brian via dream team/strong hear XD .. a few there cos they liked brian from FTTS days XD ..made a new friend atira.. didn't get her contact details though..but it was really nice talking to you atira! shall not dwelve into details but i managed to get myself an extra set of poster+merchandise..thanks to awatif <3 ...

then at 2pm the doors did open and they started letting ppl in by the ticket type..we were unhappy on how they barricaded us and made us "normal tickets" stand at the way back..we weren't given a choice on whether to want to go upstairs on either side (normal tickets were situated there too) ..and also there was quite a big space between the VIP rockpit and normal ticket area..which is totally stupid imo .. just let us stand directly behind the VIP rockpit! but the venue wasn't too big so it wasn't too much of a loss..but still..every centimetre front is a plus..

and the showcase began..
(no pictures at all because my camera is too lousy to get good pictures in the opera..)
the opener song was In my Head.. brian really pumped up the energy of the whole place ..awesome performance..after the performance, he was like " actually, i made a mistake..i forgot the first verse so i sang the second verse twice. I've been practicing the english version so much i just forgot, stuff like this happens eh?" .. i think everyone was going "LOL WE DON'T CARE" ..haha but that was how awesome the dude is..

next he sung 2 songs i didn't recognise..they were old songs..i've only heard his manifold album and in my head..so pardon me XD .. the fancams will be up in soon ^^

soonafter..there was fan interaction moment..4 lucky girls got to go on stage and brian'll do something special for them..one of the lucky girls was mok tze hui..kelly's friend! she got a hug from brian from the back!! other lucky fans got a sexy dance, a direct hug, and brian's aegyo!

a few more performances followed..a manifold medley, my girl, tears run dry, and in my head eng ver as an encore..the order of performances might be inaccurate ^^

my girl

tears run dry

manifold medleys

in my head (encore)

After the showcase..the emcee was managing the crowd, for the VVIP and VIP ticket holders were to take pictures with brian..then he suddenly announced "winners of 8tvnitelive get to party with brian" .. sook ling and I were like O.O ... then a bunch of hoey happened (if you really wanna know ask and i shall tell one to one =D.. ) .. BUT what i can say IS that i got a hug from brian! not just a casual brief hug..but a warm full hug!! that made just made it ALL for me XDD ...
(again, no pictures, i was at a lousy position, unless you want to see the back of brian's head of the side, then yes i've got a couple..)

B2st < 3

2010-06-29T05:30:00.016+01:00

had another awesome awesome weekend ... <3

the previous weekend was a u-kiss weekend, this time around it's a Beast weekend! initially i wasn't able to go for the showcase for a number of reasons, only able to go for the autograph session on sunday.. On showcase day i was to go visit my aunt in Kajang for lunch..wouldn't make it in time ..plus the venue being at KL Live, i wouldn't have transport back home after the showcase since no one lives near my area..

BUT THEN

- aunt called to cancel the lunch cos she was busy that day!

- Kelly Lim won passes to go! (and she lives just one street away from me!)

i knew abt kelly winning passes before aunt called to cancel ..so i was just ecstatic that she was going to the showcase and just constantly reminded her to say hie to seob for me and take awesome pictures of that..doojoon too if she's got extra energy left...but when aunt called to cancel after dinner i was like KJGSFLKASJGFL DXXX I COULD HAVE GONE TOOOOOOOOO DXXXX ...since i might have a chance of tagging along with kelly to come home after showcase..BUT first, i needed to find myself a passes! THANK GOD farah's friend was selling the passes she won! seriously this is LUCK i tell you LUCK! so i secured my pass and was goign for BEAST!! XD so happy!! i was actually more excited with going to see heast than u-kiss haha..i think it's the adrenaline rush of all this last minute-ness? i don't really know but I WAS GOING TO SEE BEAST!!!

on saturday morning i woke up to an sms from wanie, the girl who was selling me her pass. she asked "what time you coming?" i was like O.o .. so i called her back..turns out she was already at the venue! at 8am! i was like but dude i'm not leaving my hse till 3.30pm!she said she wanted to enter the venue early at 3pm..luckily Lyn was able to help me take the ticket from her then when i arrive i'll collect from lyn..THANK YOU LYN <3 you are the awesomest <3 <3

on saturday, showcase day, went to pick up kelly, her friend and her sister ..then we were off to KL LIVE! reached before 5pm..THERE WERE MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF PPL! and very messy too.. i mean..the whole point of buying the overpriced package that comes with t shirt and cd and pass is that those wearing the t shirt are supposed to be given protity to enter .. but all i saw was one big mesh of ppl randomly lining up..i just shrugged it off and thought some arrangement and whatnot would be done later when it was closer to 7pm..

after kelly collected her passes, she and her friend (sorry i still can't remember your name..but i know kelly and patricia calls you yan XD) .. headed for KFC while i chose to wait in line..while waiting made a new friend IZZA! awesome cool girl :) .. she went for u-kiss 's fanmeet too! we were standing in heat and talking..30 minutes felt like an hour..that was how uncomfortable it was standing and waiting for the doors to open..

finally it was 30 minutes to 7pm!seoulfm(if i didn't hear it wrong), 8tv nitelive and that show on astro AEC did some coverage..reporters and photographers took pictures and got the crowd to cheer and all..then when 7pm struck..the crowd turned impatient. i don't blame them one bit. first the chants went "OPEN OPEN OPEN" .. but no one was doing anything..the security were just hanging around the stairs leading up to the venue aimlessly..this made me wonder, WHERE THE HELL ARE THE ORGANISERS??!!! aren't they supposed to at least show their faces and handle the situation???! then fans again chanted " T SHIRT FIRST!! T SHIRT FIRST!! T SHIRT FIRST!!" still security didn't do anything..no one came out to enforce anything..as time went on..ppl started fainting..that was when panick started to show on their faces..it's terrible that ppl are fainting ..but to see the security finally having some form of panick and realisation that this situation in fucked up and needs to be controlled asap.. i was like "YO FINALLY!" .. after what felt like 10 ppl fainting(course there were fake ones too but let's ignore that for now) .. the guards were not at all professional in handling the situation of ppl fainting ..they just pulled the girls up and dumped them the side where there were less ppl, away from the crowd..some were dragged up AND I MEAN LITERALLY AND PHYSICALLY DRAGGED up the stairs as it got later into the evening..basically teh security were very rude, very unprofessional and did not respect the crowd one bit.

Among the highlights in which i think it totally unacceptable and absurd by the security:
- when the crowd got so worked up and irritated to the extent they shouted "REFUND REFUND REFUND!!" All the guards did was sit at the stairs, light cigarettes, smoked and drank water. I understand security needing to be stern and firm to control the crowd, but i think one very importaint thing was missing. They did not get respect from the crowd. It's cos they did not respect the crowd in the first place. Shouting loosely, screaming, scolding and begin rough does not bring one respect.

- the guard threw his half drunk bottle of water down to the crowd when they asked for water..WTF is that..

- a guard actually shouted down to the crowd " OI CAN YOU ALL STOP FAINTING AH!" ... like fainting is something we can voluntarily control..

- this man (not sure if he was security) shouted down "THOSE WITH T SHIRT WILL GO IN FIRST, IF YOU DON'T HAVE ONE, GO BUY AT THE SIDE, IF THE PLACE IS FULL THEN SORRY CANNOT ENTER..who is he to have authority to say that?! if the venue cannot accomodate so many ppl why make so many passes and have them won in contests?was it the venue limitation to blame? or was it poor estimation? i understand selling more tickets than the venue can actually capacitate cos a certain percentage who bought might not turn up but this is too much.

it wasn't until 8.30pm when they decided that there was no other way to go about the situation than just to throw the doors open and let the fans all charge in..IZZA was awesome with this..i thank her with all my hearts..we held hands and charged like our lives depended on it..the pushing and shoving was fucking ridiculous..i was practically sandwiched the whole time..words can't really properly describe it..whoever wants to know..one day when we meet up, i'll show it to you ..it wasn't so bad for me cos i'm not small..but those lil skinny tiny kids..gosh i felt like just putting my arm around some of them and protecting them..seriously no joke..

when were entered the venue again we had to continue pushing and shoving..we wanted to get a better view..well actually we didn't really push or shove..we just took oppotunity of every single inch of space between ppl and just squeezed ourselves front..then as more and more ppl came in..there was massive amounts of pushing and shoving AGAIN..so we were naturally just pushed in front some more..we were quite near to the front really..just a few rows behind..compared to the middle area where we initially started at..

wasn't till 9pm that the showcase started..ignoring the lousy organising and security and situation before showcase..

BEAST ARE AWESOME MAD AWESOME!

compared to u-kiss's stage performance and presence and all that.. i vote beast! haha! this is a very non bias comment for i don't even know half of beast! XD i only know seob and doojoon and gikwang but sometimes even gikwang i get mixed up with the other 3 LOL .. seriously they were mad awesome! hyun seung was at my side of the stage most often..seob was at the very other end..what a love hate relationship i have with him ... doojoon kinda liked my side of the stage too ... hahah XD after a intro performance..the emcee came out and did some interaction..then more performances..OASIS KILLED ME T____________T ... that freaking lucky fan OMFG ... OASIS is now my favourite beast song. period.

a few pictures (couldn't really bother taking many pictures..too into seeing the boys themselves and enjoying the moment)

a few fancams i've uploaded..there will be more fancams coming..

one thing i notice is after i mass upload..i get terribly capped when i want to download..so i shall be uploading slowly from now..there are tons of fancams from other fans to enjoy and i'm sure they've got better fancams..cos i have to admit..beast's performances were so effing awesome i just couldn't care at all about fancams..so i just stuck my hand up high and hit the record button..didn't know what shit i took till i rewatched at home.

After the showcase there was aa short autograph session..NO HANDSHAKE..NO PICTURES..NO GIFTS TO THE BOYS.. if there's anything you wanna give the boys, you have to pass to the security.. again massive shoving and pushing..there was a time my foot got caught in between an elevated platform and some idiot's leg was squashing it to the side and pushing it inwards some more.. it felt like my lower calf was gonna snap into 2 seriously..it wasn't long till it was my turn..there were moments ..there definitely were moments..

the pushing and shoving was so bad my album's jewel case actually broke into 3 cracks.

went for supper before going home..i was so damn tired from standing for the past 7 hrs..and getting shoved and bothered and pushed and squashed.. i had half my mind of not wanting to go one utama the next day for autograph session..i already got my autograph..but thinking back on how awesome the performances and the dudes were.. i decided to just GO GO GO ! like, when's the next time i'd get to see them in person again?! XD

so sunday morning didn't dare to wake up too late..had to act as normal as possible..although i feel like dead crap on the inside..still so sore and tired..but had to pretend like all was fine in front of parents..they're do not understand fandom...so yahh... it was so painful turning my neck like nothing's stabbing it...no pain..no sores..

12pm went to pick up kelly and her sister..yan will be going later with her parents..we arrived before 1pm..went to popular before searching for fcuk's entrance..at the same time stopping by every CD shop we come across to look for the normal version shock of the era album for yan..after all that..when we arrived at fcuk's entrance..again there were already massive numbers of ppl..nik and lyn were there already and were already lining up..IZZA was already there too with her sister..collected the repackaged from her..then not long after the security started to pair ppl up and line them up and started bringing in barricades..looks like they got shit scared from what happened last night..i thought of going for lunch..at least a quick one then slightly before 3pm start to line up ..since the autograph session wasn't supposed to start till 5pm .. but there wasn't much choice considering the situation..so we just sat and talked to pass time..yan soon arrived and we just sat there talking amongst ourselves and with the fans sitting around..

at around 5pm Beast arrived and the event began..again it's just hard core autograph signing..again NO HANDSHAKE..NO PICTURES..NO GIVING THE BOYS GIFTS DIRECTLY..today the version i'm holding is the repackaged so the back cover was to be signed..i don't like it being signed there..since it's a glossy surface and the ink would come out after some time..due to friction and whatever other elements..but owh well..gotta take extra extra care of it..put it in a tin container all by itself or something..putting in a plastic bag won't work since the plastic will "stick away" the signatures over time..and using cling wrap/film is stupid..

(ignore the foot XD)

I sensed lots of tension from the security and organisers during the whole of the event..they were watching everyone like hawks..the moment a handful of ppl start to stand up when they weren't supposed to, they immediately rushed over and commanded them to at least squat down again..after around an hour of signing autographs..the boys headed into the vans to take a break..while the emcee played a game with the fans..winner gets to take a picture with the boys..then celebrated doojoon's bday (dongho's cake looked better..the chocolate of doojoon's cake didn't look very appetizing to me lmfao XD) .. then about another hr of signing autographs and beast bade goodbye ~~

i also got to bump into that group of tiny small lil kids, that group on saturday where i felt like putting my arm around them and protecting them from all the pushing and shoving and sardine-ing..LOL turns out one of em works at one hotel! haha XD took pictures with that girl and lyn and her seob fanboard <3 ..

some pictures from the autograph session..

I am now so officially broke i cannot afford to go see Brian T__________________T

well tbh i don't really know brian that well..i don't listen to his songs much..the only reason i wanted to go see him is cos he's just awesome in Dream Team ... LOL .. i initially thought i could have some extra money by changing some of my GBP money into ringgit..but money changers have never in their lives seen bank notes form Ulster Bank..they only recognise Bank of England notes..so as a result.. i have to survive with the RM300 i managed to keep from mum when she was maniacly changing for GBP notes last minute last year..ang pow money from relatives and the pocket money dad gave when i came back earlier this month..he gave quite a sum (judging on how a pure stingy penang hokkien he is LOL) ..i doubt i'll get money from him again come july..i hope i do though..then i can go see brian! LOL IZZA's gonna hate me i think if i suddenly text her and say i can go for brian XD initially she booked 3 tickets..herself, her sis and me..then at the autograph session i told i can't go cos i got no money .. IF dad does give me money again for july i am so gonna go!

U-KISS < 3

2010-06-21T07:21:00.017+01:00

before i start blogging anything... A THOUSAND THANK YOUS TO THE AWESOME KELLY LIM AND LYN FOR MAKING THIS KELLYFISH'S SUMMER HOLIDAYS SO EFFING WONDERFUL AWESOME ...I OWE IT ALL TO YOU TWO AWESOME FRIENDS <3

U-Kiss arrived in malaysia on thursday evening, around 4.45pm .. on wednesday evening, Lyn was asking if i would be going to welcome to boys at the airport...a millioon hearts of mine wanted to go of course..but KLIA is quite far away from home..i didn't know the way there even if dad let me take the car ..lyn suggested we meet at KL central and erl there..but then getting home would be another problem..so in the end didn't go..on thursday evening i was just in front of tweetdeck reading updates and looking at pictures..gracioulsy commenting and welcoming the boys in the little way that i can...

THEN

at night..was chatting with kelly lim ( frm here on when i mention "kelly" it is her and not me ok? XD ) ..we were chatting about the boys being at sunway lagoon tomoro(friday)..we both live a street apart from each other and sunway is like a less than 10 minute drive from our hse..our convo was basically like so:

me: "hey wanna hang out tomoro?" ..and she was like
kelly: "where?lagoon or pyramid(the mall right next to lagoon)" .. XD ..

we ended up deciding to go hang out in pyramid...so on friday kelly and her sister picked me up then her friend and sister and we headed to pyramid..one car packed with fangirly girls..nothing can beat that!XD upon arrival at pyramid..we were like "let's go check out lagoon! see if we get lucky XD" ... so all 5 of use went....and WE WERE IN LUCK!

the boys have arrived but were still in their vans..soohyun is damn the play/mood maker..he was closing and opening the van door playing peekaboo wave to the fans lol .. there was a little moment when a dude went into their van and kinda sat on him and he had a little naughty playful expression on his face ..HAHA XD ..

then they ALL came out of the van..finally! i would have been able to take a fancam or some pictures of that but of all times, my grandmother decided to call me at that VERY MOMENT! while talking to her and trying to make the convo as short as possible i was thinking to myself.. "GRANDMAAAAAAAAAA your timing is just DXXX"

back to u-kiss spazz..DUDE they all look damn awesome in person..i think every artiste gets the same "gosh pictures do not do them justice" comment..but really it is true! at first i couldn't stop looking at kevin .. i've read so much on how pretty and porcelain he is and all..i really wanted to see it for myself..and dude i and a gajillion of us look like a charcoaled indian compared to his fair complexion XD then i noticed i was staring at this dude but my brain couldn't register who it was ..i almost started counting the members "1 2 3 4 --- " to see who it was that was missing..who was this dude i'm staring at.. and suddenly *brain snaps* "OH XANDER IT'S YOU! " XD .. seriously he looked damn beautiful? .. haha i think that should be the most appropriate word for now LOL ..seriously my brain literally lagged 5 whole seconds before realising it was him XD ..not long after, filming started ..i think it was for some sunway lagoon related promo thing?no idea but it was really interesting and fun to watch..sunway lagoon welcomed u-kiss with that tribal red indian fire show thing..(lol thousand apologies i really do not know what it's called")... then there was a short interview thing..i just vaguely heard something abt asking who's afraid of heights and something about the rides but i'm not too sure..couldn't hear clear and loud enough..soon after, they headed into lagoon...kelly and i were like aweing at the fans who actually bought tickets to enter and continue stalking u-kiss.. the theme park tickets aren't cheap to begin with..around rm45 at least? not too sure..last time i went to lagoon was in 2004 on a class trip ...haha XD ..

managed to get a few pictures :)

and a fancam of the welcome at sunway lagoon :)

after that we all went back to pyramid and did our hanging out...by that time, u-kiss had 3 new official new fans haha..went to mini toons to get lyn her flowers and toys on stalk thingys which she wanted to give the boys..and also i wanted to get some stuff for the boys..

this's what i got for the boys..the cute pens were bought at mini toons..toffees and chocolates from belfast <3

for xander.. i got him a little extra..a little monkey plush XD .. how bias of me haha..when i saw the monkey i was like "THIS IS XANDER" didn't care if i would be in shit bankruptcy i had to get it haha..

when it was time to go fill our tummys with lunch ..we went to "The street cafe" For some korean food..( or was it cos of the window view access that overlooked sunway lagoon i'm not sure XD ) .. AGAIN WE WERE LUCKY with awesome timing..at that time..the boys were on the long suspension bridge..thanks to the table of 2 girls who shrieked all of the sudden..so we took turns to go be busybody on it a bit ..the bridge was quite a distance from the window..so we couldn't really see who was who clearly..but kiseop was a definite easy spot XD i would have glad;y taken a pic for remembrance and whatever else sakes..but babe, the samsung jet does have it's limitations XDD

after lunch..we went hunting for beast CDs for the auto session in one utama on this coming sunday..after that we parted ways..kelly, her sister and i headed for home while her friend and sister went to join their mum..there were buzzes saying that u-kiss will appear on the 4pm e-news..so i decided to give it a try and THEY WERE ON!! what an awesome day huh! ... hearing xander speak canto is just FTW haha .. as if it's not good enough already that these kids can quite perfectly understand and communicate in english in general..and chinese for some of the dudes..but this dude can do canto too! and fluently! i did minute-minute tweets throughout the whole show..had loads of fun doing that and seeing the replies to the tweets.. <3

that night it was so hard to fall asleep..well i had a few doubts and qualms and all that..but let's not dwell into it..i was just more afraid i couldn't wake up early enough to get to KLCC on time XD .. but in the end it all worked out..managed to hijack enough toffees and choclates for all 7 dudes..met up with lyn..then went to mandarin oriental to meet up with the girl who was selling me the ticket..she asked us to meet her at pearl room of the hotel ..so we made our way there..and to quite a big surprise..it was the venue of the press conference! i mean i now there was a press conference at 10am but i didn't know where..when i saw that i was standing outside the press conference room..i felt like asking 'Erm may i please take a peak inside?" XD ..but we didn't of course..

after paying and getting my redemption ticket from her..lyn and i then made our way to the planery hall and lined up to redeem our tickets..collected our poster and album..when i first got my album.. i thought it was empty and we had to use this later to get autographs from the boys..then lyn was like "lemme see your poster" i was wondering ..aren't they all the same? then after she saw she was like " oh you got xander as well" i was like "HEH?! *grabs back poster and looks* .. so it was signed! but only one member per poster! XD and fate gave me xander's... i'm not complaining at all really..i don't have a distinct favourite among u-kiss but xander's definitely one of the "more on top of the pack" ones XD .. but really even if i got some one else's whom i don't pay attention to too much or liked lesser i wouldn't have exchanged cos it was fate that i got it so let's just be happy and content with it =] ...

here's me xander poster :]

after that, we made our way to the food court...and started assembling out gifts for the boys..mine was all lazy cellotaping and scribbling my twitter (really hope the boys see it and LOL at it or something XD) on the packets of toffees and chocolates..xander's monkey had the most effort and work..the pack of toffee was just so hard to tie onto the monkey..while trying to squeeze the toffee into the monkey's grasp i was like "i knew i should have gotten the bigger monkey".. so every one got a pack of toffees/chocolate and a cute pen..but xander got an extra monkey :)

slightly after 1pm..lyn and i made our way up to the hall and lined up to enter the hall..found our seat (we had to part then due to different numbered seating.. =C would have been so much more fun if we were side by side hugging each other in total hyper spazz mode during the fanmeet =\ .. ) .. ryan from oneFM was the host..lol he looks so small standing with the dudes XD even dongho haha ... but lols aside.. the fanmeet started smoothly and was not delayed too much too..the event started off with 2 games, cam cam cam followed by a talent game..lucky girls who got chosen i envy each and every one of youuuu *O* ...

we celebrated dongho's birthday in advanced also..when ryan asked about his bday wish..he replied " i want to concert soon in malaysia" ..upon hearing that the crowd went wild of course, but i was like "DUDE YOUR CONCERT SOON BETTER MEAN ONE YEAR LATER AS IN JUNE-AUGUST TIMING OKAY"..that's the only 3 months that i'll be in malaysia..the rest of the time i'll be far far away in belfast..i would cry a flood if you dudes came when i'm not in the country! T________________________T

then came the performances..the dudes are effing awesome live! it's totally different from watching performances online or in HD quality whatsoever..you really gotta be there to be totally awed..it was awesome! they performed 5 songs of theirs (bingeul bingeul, talk to me, i like you, mworago, man man hani..sorry if it's not in order i was too hyped up and trying to enjoy the performace too much XD ) and one ballad, boyz II men's "end of the road" ..apparently that was their first time ever performing this song?

xander was like "you all are like ais kacang now..after we're done with this song, we hope you'd melt into like water or something...hahah XDD " ... gosh i love this dude <3

i took fancams for all of the performances and more except mworago i only got a little over a minute..my memory card HAD to just run out of space at that time DX ..

there was also a short fan interaction ment where kevin and the hyungs got dongho to show some aegyo..and dongho did GEE! ... i am one of those(and i dare say many) who think GEE is damn freaking annoying..almost to the extent of the irritating mosquito that just won't leave your ear..but i damn effing enjoyed it! damn that kid is soo adorable! can't wait to see what happenens when he grows up some more, becomes legal and all that follows haha XD

soohyun sang wang lee hom's "forever love" for 15 seconds ( yes i'm sure it's 15 seconds cos i recorded it and that's how long the fancam is lol) .. i already heard it while watching their interview on 8tv enews the previous day but hearing it live just made it all the more awesome epic and melted me that much moarrrrr... (alomst all LOL ) ..

MORE fancams will be constantly uploaded and can be found at http://www.youtube.com/user/KKVL9091

after all the performances and ments and games and celebrations..it was time for fansigning time!! the first 20 VIPs went up first..followed my the rest of the VIPs .. lyn and i united again..spazzed our heads crazy while waiting for our turn..the whole experience was all the more awesome having her with me while getting the autographs <3 ..

after awhile into the autograph session..one by one the dudes started taking off their outer shirts! i didn't noticed who started it and who followed suite..but the ones who did were soohyun. eli, kibum , dongho .. at that very moment i immediately took out my phone and tweeted "MALAYSIA'S UNBEARABLE HEAT I LOVE YOU" .. but also another side of me was like "dongho put your shirt back on when it's my turn i don't think i can take it standing in front of you like that XD" ..thankfully he put it back on after awhile XD

oh yesh a little about dongho from spazzing with the girl who sat beside me..she greeted dongho with a "HIE DONGHO! HOW ARE YOU? :) " .. and he replied "i have cold .. akjsgflkajsgflkaj " .. no he didn't swear or curse lol.. it's just that dong ho and his brand of english..the rest that came after "i have cold" sounded like jibberish to the girl XD .. LOL dongho .. work harder in your english and listen to your teacher and eli and your other hyungs XD

lyn went up first then me..kevin was first ..he was so cheerful and gave a big cheerful and wave "HIEEEEEE" and i returned it with a big "HIEEE KEVINNNN" .. i didn't know what else to say to the dude .. after signing my album,we shook hands, i said thank you and gave him his gift.. he was like "awwh thank you, it's so cuteeee thank you very much"... next was dongho..also he gave a bright "HIEEEE" .. i was quite stunned,i guess cos he was the one i wanted to see in person most so all i could churn out of me was a big "HELLOOOOO" to return him..he signed my album, we shooked hands i said thank you and gave him his gift..next was kiseop..this time i was less hyper and just gave a normal "HELLOOOO" like how i'd give a normal friend XD .. i just remained quiet and looked while he signed my album..after signing shook hands and said thank you .. the way he sticks his hand out is very lol i find it XD .. i actually almost forgot to hand him my gift XD then when i rememebered i quickly pulled it out of the bag and left it on the table while moving towards xander..while doing that i randomly said "GET TWITTER!" he kinda stoned look at me ..and seeing that i was doubting to myself "dude, you're the oni member without twitter right? it'd be damn embarrassing if i got it mixed up wei XD" ..

then it was xander's turn! i made it a point to have to speak canto to him..and i DID! he gave his usual bright "HAIII" and i returned it..then i asked (the rest of the convo happened in canto) "can you please write me a name?" and he replied "oh sure, what's your name?" i showed him the back of my redemption card and then watched him write " k e l l y f i s h <3" ... i said thank you and shook hands.. i was getting his gift out from the plastic bag when the guard started getting pushy.. i was like WTH patience dude..but still nicely passed him my gift ..

next was kibum .. i think i took too much time to make sure xander saw my gift and all .. cos according to lyn.. kibum was like "helloo yoohooo haiiiiiii" for awhile before i realised and went "owh HAIII!" back lmfao XD .. gosh i feel bad XD .. he signed my album..we shook hands and said thank you..passed him my gift..i don't know if he even saw my gift cos the minute i put it on the table.. a hand frm behind (one of the organisers i presume) came out and clawed it away..at this "stage" of getting the autograhs the guards were really getting pushy..i was like WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM MAN ALMOST DONE LA..eli was nice and smiley..with a subtle "helloooo" .. i said hie back..shook hands said thank you and handed him to gift..last but not least was soohyun! .. this is one hyperactive over reacting dude play/mood maker wei! he greeted me with an in-your-face wave and hyper HAIIIIIIIII ... i just responded with a normal "HELLOO!" he signed my album we shook hands and said thanks ..then when i passed him his gift he went all over reacting and was like "omg that's so cute i love it saya sayang kamuuuu thank youuuuuu" .. i was thinking to myself "dude, it's just a cheap pen and a pack of toffees" .. but lol he really made up for the impatient guard being pushy with me.. i gotta admit he marshmellowed me a bit XD ..
the awesome autographs <3

(i think soohyun's autograph looks so damn wrong XD)

kellyfish <3

after lyn and i got our autographs..we stood at the back row of the first section of VIP seats and just watched everyone else get their autographs..the randomness from the dudes is just very effing LOL ... we had a little crazy moment where we shouted soohyun and dongho, her top 3 bias ..i shouted a little bit more than that due to uncontrollable still-in-shout mode- voice ...that was a a VERY BIG FAIL .. i know the boys did not hear it..but the fans around definitely did..and quite a number turned to stare at me .. and i don't blame them..cos it was not a very nice thing i shouted too..i kinda still feel bad about it ..and to anyone who's willing to listen i am every ready to make a public apology or something..

while watching the other packages' fans getting their albums..i was thanking every single star that made it possible for me to attend this event with a VIP package ticket..i think if i had any other package's ticket i would feel ripped off?cos the way the fans were given their album is so not worth..i understand it's due to time constraint...but they could have just been given like 7 secs to have a handshake with the boys?but they were just pushed to make the line constantly moved..couldn't even hand the boys their gifts..if they want to do so they had to go to the hotel later..i don't know how that worked out cos lyn, her friend and i went back to KLCC after the fanmeet ended..we only left when ryan announced it was the end..kevin and xander and the rest said their goodbyes and went backstage..xander was so nice to mention "i'm sorry we couldn't shake everyone's hand but we promise we'll be back to shake everyone and hug everyoneeee" again.. i was thinking DUDE YOUR PROMISE TO COME BACK BETTER BE ONE YEAR LATER BETWEEN JUNE-AUGUST PLEASEEEEEEEEE .....

after the boys went back stage, there were some fans who started chanting "ENCORE ENCORE" ..lyn and i were like "PFFFTUAHAHAHHAHHAHHAHA BABE THIS IS NOT A CONCERT LA" ..but lol i did have a sinking feeling when the boys finally left the stage and went backstage, away from sight..i already started missing them then? XD

i guess that much sums up my awesome experience?if there's anything random i want to add in more i'll do so and put it in pink XD

Here's a collection of pictures from the fanmeet which i think are able enough to share with everyone :)

dead legs

2010-06-08T00:57:00.000+01:00

My legs are officially dead. I think i feel how minho felt when he was at high jump training XD .. that pain had in his calves..i think i feel it too..well mine are hurting >.< .. i think it's from all that strain i put it through shifting all the effing heavy boxes around my room while packing..and when i was moving my large purple luggage i used them and well basically my entire legs' power ..up and down the stairs..then yesterday sped walk back to elms and back to new hse .. just to grab my camera to take pictures of my room to show mum and dad..today did more damage to the pain...mopped room's floor traditional style..yes the cinderella/korean drama style of cloth and knees LOL ..

monday was biochemistry exam..the gap we had between human structure i could have done alot more intense cramming..but i just couldn't get into the mood the first day and a half..then the remaining i crammed ..monday morning could have done more with the time i had..but i just felt so restless..i just couldn't .. hopefully i did enough to pass nicely *fingers crossed* ..

human structure was better than i expected..i could answer at least half of the short answer which i think they should be the correct answer..MCQ section of physiology wasn't too bad..the essay for anatomy..well i had the points..well at least it wasn't like last semester where i wrote proper points for one section and try luck crap for the remaining 2 sections..but the question was compare and contrast..i think i did not well enough..physiology essay did the short notes question.. first section i think i screwed up abit..i couldn't really remember the steps and all..i just randomly shot..section 2 can't really remember the question now..third section i didn't know well..just wrote a couple of sentences on what i last minute crammed before the exam..

Microorganisms was ok i guess..well i prepared loads last minute for this one..did papers and all..i couldn't answer the grams bacteria question and the one asking abt that lipid i can't even remember the name off now (how fail XD) ..the MCQ were quite ok too...

hopefully i need not need to come back till september at least *fingers crossed*

after monday i just chilled alot..drama marathoned "sisters of pearl" ..and packed a little..then went out to city centre on thursday to get packing boxes and sent jet to have its battery problem fixed..packed most of my stuff on friday and saturday..sunday moved half my stuff..than you for the help kuah .. then today moved the remaining half of my stuff..there's still some random stuff but that i can bring myself when i go unpack and arrange my stuff later today and tomorro..i'm not depending too much on tomorrow...i'm thinking of going out early morning later ard 6am to go get like 2hrs or so of unpacking and arranging done..then ard 9-ish meet eunice at the union ..i'll see how i'm feeling as the hrs go by..since i think by ard very early evening we should be done with shopping and should head back to the hse to dump our stuff..i could stay then and unpack and arrange and pack luggage for home then...hmm... =\

MACROs

2010-05-30T06:35:00.001+01:00

The list

2010-05-21T15:15:00.002+01:00

LIST OF THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO DO ON MAY 31ST 2010 ... 1730HRS ONWARDS:

1) STAY UP ALL NIGHT AND WATCH THE SUN RISE..EVERY DAMN MINUTE AND SECOND OF IT

2) STAY OUTSIDE .. DOESN'T MATTER IF IT'S JUST STANDING STILL LIKE AN IDIOT

3) ENJOY THE NON HUMID BREEZE (something which is extinct in malaysia)

4) COOK COOK COOK COOK COOK COOK COOK (don't give a damn it will highly remain uneaten)

5) BLAST ROCK MUSIC IN TO MY EARS LIKE AS IF EAR DRUMS ARE MADE TO NOT GO DEAF

6) START PACKING TOWARDS NEW ADVENTURE =D

i would love to include bring world peace, save the endangered species and revive the extinct, end war and famine globally .. but heck i only have 5 days till moving day to new house, and another 5 days after that till i fly back to malaysia.. so maybe on my next list? XD

10 .... and more ... or less....

2010-05-15T07:11:00.000+01:00

I SLEPT FOR 10 FRIGGING HOURS -__-

I WENT TO BED AT 8PM -_____-

I WASTED MY LAST 24 HOURS -___________________-

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I am effing fail...i am still stupid and not quite ready for exams..yet i could allow myself to sleep and waste time llike that. Many may argue that sleep is a good thing but like DUDE 10 is too much of sleep considering the state of shit i'm in ...

at least the attempt of trying to get my sleeping patterns back to normal's had a little positive start, slept when normal ppl would sleep, woke up at 6am, a time when normal ppl would wake up...

I SPENT MONEY AGAIN ... yesasia was so nice to compensate me for the poster for double date which they have ran out of stock.. but WHY DOES THE COUPON HAVE TO EXPIRE IN JULY ... WHY???!!!! ... i asked around if anyone was going to order anything, but everyone ordered either a day or a week earlier..so i decided to spend it for myself then... i could have spent the min of USD39+ by ordering bluetory, voice and a random accessory... but NOOOOOOO .... i had to go F.T island's so long au revoir dvd and shinee's "year of us" jap ver -.- .. the dvd alone was enough to qualify for free shipment and use the coupon but cheapskate me wanted the free japan mini capsule toy that came along .. LOL ... hopefully the package arrives BEFORE june 10th .. otherwise....

IT IS EXACTLY 7 DAYS TILL FIRST EXAM ... and i'm hell not prepared to do ok enough ... the paper is a microorganisms paper...hopefully the question similarity frm past year papers is like the percentage similarity of genetics.. not to sound sour and still lament but i could have done hell alot better in genetics.. HAD i just read and revised and studied the past year papers better.. -.- ... epic fail that one...

Human structure's not too far away too..on the 25th..having that extra 48 hrs to last minute cram, i totally treasure that and am ever so grateful for it.. really i do, i think that makes a difference..

Then 6 days later on the 31st.. biochemistry paper..the final exam... i think i'm most worried abt biochem.. i am totally stupid with biochem..it's really like a whole different language.. i am really banging and relying on that 6 day gap to get most of the biochem load done.. i don't have any other choice.. i wasted too much time during easter hols.. and now i have to own microorganisms and human structure as best as i can..PLEASE JUST LET EVERYTHING WORK OUT .. PLEASE ...

i really don't want to have to come back to belfast till september.. i really really don't want to..and i want to more than pass my modules this semester.. i am extremely thankful i passed last semester..so this semester i really want to do better... please let me achieve that...

on a lighter note..project 53 has barely moved ...LMFAO .. well it did i doubt it's barely significantly noticable ..HA HA HA ... i would be effing happy it it moved like 5 a week..but gosh it's just so hard... i have to agree 53 is too much .. 61or 63 would be more achievable but like i'm greedy, i want 53 XD .. i really want to achieve this before flying back .. well let's see how much success can be achieved XD

a little closing ment pic(i'm trying to make it a point to not have my entries to be words only =D .. )

made this last friday (7/5/2010) ... on the plate is asian pancake with shrimp and chives..left is spicy stir fried fish cake and seafood..above that is potatoe side dish..beside it is the dipping sauce for the pancake..and finally, spinach side dish .. i pancakes was an epic fail ( NEVER attempt unless you have a non stick pan, which i didn't ..XD .. ) .. the spinach was awesome..i just have to go easy on the soy sauce the next time around..loved the dipping sauce...never knew vinegar and soy sauce was such a heavenly combination..potatoe side dish and spicy stir fried fish cake and seafood was great too :) .. after exams i have 4-6 days before eunice finishes her exam/moving day .. i might make all this again or most of them again..(pancakes and spinach are a definite!.. this time imma get myself a non stick pan IDC if it'll mean more stuff to pack and move on moving day XD) ..

may..may..may? ...

2010-05-02T21:47:00.000+01:00

OMFG IT'S ALREADY MAY!

should i be happy, excited, dreading, or shitting in my pants as the seconds and minutes fade past? lol ...

so easter holidays are over, and lectures have resumed for 2 weeks already now.. respiration unit had some minor alterations and rescheduling..the lecturer had an accident and couldn't be available to teach the unit, so a new lecturer had to be called on board to teach..so tuesday had a day off but i totally wasted that day..don't ask how i wasted it..not too proud of it at all..tomoro's a bank holiday..should really stop getting distracted and like cram mad for microorganisms practical test on tuesday, get the physiology report finished and cram for exams..

this time around, the exams are spread out very nicely i must say..22nd, 25th and 31st... so awesome to finish nicely on the last day of the month..which leaves me 10 days to order packing boxes, laze around, pack when the boxes arrive..it's gonna be so funny when i move..all my food stuffs XD ..i have 3 types of sugar! XD brown, dark, and white XD ..soon to have 2 type of vinegar, balsmic and apple cider..2 types of oil. grapeseed and olive..i actually will finish my olive oil after one more time of cooking and should not buy after finishing it but lol some recipes require olive oil..the scent of the olive maybe? haha but i wanna stick to the recipe as much as i can ..want it to taste as authentic as possible..lmao at myself XD ...

made kimchi chigae today..overloaded on hot pepper paste..just cos after i scooped up the supposedly 1 tbs, there was like half a tablespoon(?) left..and i was like ..arghh might as well..how much spicier can it be..but lol the stew ended up having a really strong taste of hot pepper paste it was almost like "hot pepper paste stew" more than "kimchi stew" ..mind you i was generous with the kimchi..used like 3/4 of the bottle..marinaded pork to make bulgogi..was supposed to have fried them at 8pm ish but when i took them frm the fridge it didn't seem marinaded enough..so i'll just leave them overnight..hopefully there's enough marinade and it won't dry up by morning..

i should really stop being an ass and be sleeping frm 6/8am till 3/3.30pm .. it just wastes too much time..i overslept too much already on saturday morning at ard 5.30am was the worst..i had to reboot the laptop cos internet got disconnected so while waiting i though i'd rest my shoulder..i ended up dozing off till 3pm -.- and this morning..AFTER breakfast i thought i'd sit up in bed to read unit 2 human structure..hours on an uncomfortable chair has it's toll..i ended up falling asleep in the most awkward position..didn't wake up till 3.30pm with an effing painful neck >.< .. this has damn got to stop..

tonight after this entry i plan to cram as much unit 2 human structure as i can..then get started on physiology report..after that start searching for microorganisms assignement due tuesday, then revise for practical test. After all that then will i go fry bulgogi and eat.

i actually feel quite shitty..i've been cramming but when i do questions i don't get that "OH I KNOW THAT" sort of feeling..i'd still be like "damn i didn't read well enough..i need the book..*goes grab book* " .. sort of feeling..it is damn crappy to still feel like that when exams are in 20 effing days! DX ...

this time around i don't want to only pass..i want to do decently well..i want to go back to malaysia with a "ho seh" heart..guilt free..fearless(?) .. and just have an effing awesome time meeting up with everyone...

OH YAH I SPREE-ED UNNECESSARILY AGAIN .. this time it's a samsung s2 michael jackson "this is it" limited edition 500GB external hard drive ..it was selling at a good price...and being limited edition and an external hard drive..i just HAD to get it... >.< .. i was telling myself i will not spend anymore cash other than for laundry..cos i have overspent too much, on the shoes from storets, and YB's D-cut DVD set.. i am so fail... i should be receiving the hard drive anyday now..since it's been dispatched yesterday...

and and the last order frm yesasia has arrived..the "big" order..containing FTi's MBC DVD collection, the poster in the tube, CNBLUE's THankU album(which quite a rip off imo..i'd rather pay for posters to come in tubes than that -.- ) ..FTi's double date..i'll spazz pics some other time..along with the soobak stuffs..i just have no shitting time to spazz pics >.< ..

it's been too long..

2010-04-21T22:00:00.000+01:00

it has indeed been toooo long since i last blog..why i didn't even blog on my bday! XD ... last blogged on wonbin's birthday XD almost a month XD .. i blame twitter LOL ...

life's been not too crappy lately..taht's fair to say..exams are in less than a month.. my bday this year was awesome <3 <3 .. i expected it to be a REALLY quiet one..since i'm all the way in belfast and it was easter hols and everyone's got plans to go holiday somewhere while i'm stuck in elms..but it turned out awesome..the weekend to my bday went for dinner with edmund, chuan yee, eunice, li wei and li xian... the food was awesome..thank youuuuu <3 ...

then on my bday night..while i was in PJs and watching american idol on youtube....a knock came on my door. it was ken, danny, chloe and eunice springing me with a surprise cake XD .. love ya dudes... <3 thanks loads! the trick candles were awesome haha XDD ...

easter hols were spent sleeping, eating, and shinee XD .. yesh S H I N E E ... haha ...it's all hello baby's fault.. i did revision of course...but i definitely could have done more..LOADS MORE...so much for the thought of going library and muggin out till dark...even now after class i come straight home other than a little detour to tescos or asian supermarket(which i will go on friday lol) .. i was planning to cram and revise in the library every other day after lectures till almost dark then come home drama dinner online XD .. but lol ..at least it's not happening this week..maybe next week..we'll see haha ...

i would spazz kpop but i just cba ... i'm soooo behing CNBLUE fandom..i don't know if i can get back on track .. i just missed so much .. i still love kpop and all no less but lol iono why i just can't be forum-active as much as last time .. i've got more of a life now maybe? XDDD ...

i shall not dwell into the issues of finance ..let's just say i can't wait to get new money next semester XDD ..

so easter hol's ended and 3 days of lectures have gone by..at least i can say i don't feel as burdened with new things to learn as imagined..monday night i crammed for human structure's assesment on tueday..wasted tuesday night..and today..which i finished at 12pm ..i wasted the whole day by watching SGB, another cinderella story, and more SGB .. (ONEW YOU FAIL DUBU MANCHESTER IS NOT THE CAPITAL OF ENGLAND -.-) ...

i have pictures to share..more soobak stuff..a solar plant thingy, a mini fan, another pendrive..OH AND MY BIRTHDAY MASS SPREE!!!! ... i will definitely share them here but at least not now XD .. DVD heaven sent me a wrong item..i ordered 1 pig rabbit cellphone accessory and a cellphone holder..but they sent me 2 cellphone accessories so they resent me the correct one and let me keep the mistake cellphone accessory FOC XD how nice of them!! =D ..

oh lately i've ventures into korean food adventures ! i'm experimenting at making korean food...ir's so much fun! i'll use that as a de-stressing excuse and it's not wasting time XD .. so far i've tried making bulgogi and bibimbap..

bibimbap was a success imo..

bulgogi was a success too..unless it tasting kinda like sukiyaki makes it a failure..but LOL it's not my fault i didn't make the marinade i was lazy and bought the bottle frm asian supermarket so yahhh XDD .. my next adventure's gonna be kimchi jjigae and ddeokbokki =D .. gonna get the remaining ingredients frm asian supermarket on friday..if i don't have microorganisms tutorial tomorro i might go tomorro and then i might not..i feel like going tescos again tomoro..HAAGEN DAZS HALF PRICE! XDD really feel like going to get a tub of strawberry cheesecake ..teeheee ..XD

oh yesh, i received the £20 amazon voucher frm lovefilm and spent it on an AWESOME AWESOME pair of headphones .. love them to bits! the extra bass is just lourve <3 .. BEST pair of headphones/earphones i've owned! To anyone who's looking for affordable awesome earphones i highly recommend this! =D

PC fair last weekend in malaysia..hence harvey norman had a storage device sale.. i managed to coax daddy into getting me a new 500GB external hard drive!!
daddy: wait, you said tumpang buy..where's the money?
me: i'll pay you back when i go back to msia..or if you can't wait, gimme your account no, i'll transfer to you.
daddy: - the "i knew frm the start i'm not gonna get paid back" silence

XDD THANK YOU DADDYYYYY ILUUUUUUU <3

Hello Baby Stopbook

2010-04-11T09:39:00.003+01:00

APRIL FOOL!

2010-04-01T02:13:00.003+01:00

APRIL FOOOOOLLLL!!!! XDD

(lighten up, smile! =D)

another 2 weeks

2010-03-27T03:02:00.003Z

FIRST AND FOREMOST...HAPPY BIRTHDAY OH WONBIN!! sorry i didn't blog on the 26th..one thing led to another (DCOMs are VERY distracting XD) ...i got you a cakeeee...well not a cake..apple crumble to be specific...but it's the thought that counts?(i have proof btw lol) ...

Just like that, another 2 weeks has come and gone.....damn it's like a blink of an eye takes longer to complete.. -.- ...

let's see how productive my last 2 weeks has been...erm spent a lot of money yesh i have, last week made my mass order upcoming to me special day..i was saying that i wouldn't check the mail till 31/3 to surprise myself to see what arrives but lol i couldn't resist..plus the order i made frm boots, mum was like "has it come has it come?" i had to go check haha...but nothing much came..oni the boots order and my soobak camera ^^ ..it's a real cue camera..boasts 8MP ... but yesterday i tried it out..it doesn't work! lol it's a driverless camera so it shud work just by being plugged in via USB but it didn't when i tried..so contacted the seller and she asked me to try in another computer..but my laptop's the oni computer i have..i'll restart and try again, if it still doesn't work i'll just tell her i tried and it still can't work..~~will post pics later once i've taken them XD ..~~

oh got free 2 week trial from lovefilm, i signed up just cos i wanted the £20 voucher frm amazon ..lol don't call me cheapskate it's still money oni in another form..lol lucky i chose the cheapest package to trial free cos to get the voucher i need to rent and also pay for at least the first subsription..so £3.99 for a £20 voucher, sounds worth it to me ^^ .... first rental was "little ashes" ..yes the rob pattinson one..i am team jacob..i just wanted to see if he was as kayu and constipated like in other movies like he appeared to be in twilight and new moon XD ..

i will not disclose how much i spree-ed over last weekend...let's just say...CHO ...lmfao XDD ....code break tat! XD ...

last week was the LAST biochemistry practical..HALLELUYAHHH!! ... according to the lecturer..everyone who went to all the practicals passed..i am just over the moon for that..nevermind i didn't nail it awesome..i'll nail hard ass in the exam paper..i swear i will...i just want to pass everything i've done so far ^^ ... not too much to ask for? =) ...lol...

THIS WEEK... was pure awesome... NO biochemistry practical..NO microorganisms practical...NO physiology practical...as usual anatomy practical i spent so much time drawing i couldn't finish the questions in time..when the session to tidy up before official marking comes gonna have to amend and complete SO MUCH gosh thinking abt it practically gives me breathing difficulties XD ...

oh yah.. and this past 2 weeks...my sleeping patterns are like crap..sleep 4am wake up 30 minutes before i'm to leave for lecture..so yahh i oni had just enough time to wake up, brush teeth, change, pack, and leave..lol..wed and thurs was teh crappiest of all..i actually overslept and missed lectures! >.< ... like wed 10am lecture i woke up 10.30am...thurs 9am lecture i woke up at 9.15am..like WTF wei..and i've been like having 1-2 meals a day..one proper meal and the other junk ... lol ...very not good. Kids, do not follow this example..Tuesday went out with sarah, lisa and denise..sarah went looking for something summer for beach party at night, frm the pictures ..looked awesome..took my first bus ride in belfast XD .. well now i know how to take the bus to town XD ..watched "shutter island" starring leo dicaprio....missed seeing him act..was an awesome thriller..i recommend! =) ..random but lol i miss driving so much ..lol... VIOS when i get back to msia...imma spend so much time with chuuuu <3 ...

guess that's all the eventful things that happeed the pass 2 weeks if i rememebr anymore i'll edit the entry =) ..

easter hols has started !! YAY!!! the whole floor to myself and eunice! thr fridge too!! YAYYY!!! since there's a meeting with trevor our future landlord tomoro and maybe dinner..i might go M&S on sunday...wanna just splurge for the sakes of slurging..i really don't need anymore snacks/biscuits/etc .. but like i just wanna cos i've not been there for a long time and just cos i can XD ... this easter hols i am determined to not waste it away like xmas hols..i resolve to study arse hard...i really wanna pawn this summer exams so i can go back msia without a worry in me heart =) .. i DO NOT wanna leave msia until i have my lemang/ketupat/serunding/putu piring/air tebu/murtabak..well the hari raya food =)) ..

for some reason the library has really grown on me..iono why i just like working there and more stuff can be done there too! lol .. i think not having the laptop might be a very good reason haha...i might actually spend my whole day in the library..actually thought abt doin that for easter hols..haha we'll see..if i want REALLY cannot bear not being disconnected frm the online fam i can always ask to borrow a laptop..

2 weeks since?! O.o

2010-03-13T18:24:00.001Z

It's been 2 weeks since i last blogged?! okayyyyhhh...so looks like my life is getting so dull repetitive routine blog entries abt it is not even worthy of anymore. something needs to be done here =D

first week of march has been a blur? LOL i can't remember seriously. well there was hello baby shinee ep6..ukiss vampire ican'tremember ep no what.. XD .. then the usual music shows, american idol week where john park got eliminated..uni wise it was a more free one,m with no microorganisms practical and tutorial but damn i cna't remember any of it..owh yea! that was the week where i slacked like hell..didn't print handouts nothing, went to class with pen and paper and copied and copied and copied. haha XD the reason behind it...damn cannot remember lol .. maybe i'll come back fill in that lost memory sometime later. i'm sure if i retrace my tweets i can remember XD ..

edit: OH YAHHH NOW I REMEMBER!!! MALAYSIAN NIGHT WEEK! XDD ... thursday was spent going shopping with edmund and eunice and suisse..i didn't find a dress but eunice found 2 lol ... had loads of fun helping suisse choose her dress =)) ..friday got off early but wasted evening slept early at night..woke up late on saturday afternoon..then went to see hse with ken danny and chloe..then malaysian night, 2 words to sum it all up AWESOME FUN...didn't get back till 3am ..XD .. got an earful frm mum abt it..but like akjsgalkfsj... hahaha...for now mon-wed's still blurry...if i cba i'll look up and back track my twitter..it's not an easy task wei, i tweet like mad nowadays. my life's pretty much very clinged to twitter i think i can crumble

this week. i have only one word. okay maybe too. Pig sleep. yesh i've been sleeping too much this week it should be illegal XD ... since monday night till now, i've slept 49 hours...which is >.< ... i know sleep is good; repairs body cells, gives your body a chance to recharge and etc. but like too much of ANYTHING is NO GOOD. sleep is no exception. By the looks of this, i should not be sleeping tonight and sunday night as well, just chiong all the way, die on monday when i get back at ard 6pm..then chiong one more full tuesday, then get back alive on wednesday. St patrick's day on wednesday so off the whole day. that should would be a very nice day

for falling dead on tuesday night then not gaining consciousness till say, noon wednesday? =D ...

HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEK: MY SOOBAK PENDRIVE ARRIVED!!! AIN'T IT JUST THE AWESOMEST!! XD

this week was supposed to be a busy week but then microorganisms practical was scheduled next week not this, THANK YOU april for mentioning that or else i would've have been living a sad life dreading tuesday XD .. wed came and saw swee boon's landlord for 2 room apartments, compared to the 5 bedroom house, no fight XD ..thurs fri usual uni days..slept damn lot though.. >.< ... must not do that anymore...

at first i did have some qualms abt sharing a hse with chloe danny and ken, like deiiii including today i've oni talked to them properly 3 times XD .. i've seen them around in the mbc before at random times but that's it XD .. but lol iono if it's cos i'm used to meeting strangers(online most of the time lol ) ..striking up a friendship in the timelength the snap of the finger or something(SHUU I MISS YOU LIKE SO WRONLY BUT YEAHH I MISS YOUUU..and CEREALBUDDEHS should reunite ehhh...) we kinda got off quite nicely, the whole alien idon'tknowyou feeling evaporated really fast...chloe went to concord so she knows sam and yew hann.. and we were like DUDE YOU SERIOUS?! LOL WHAT A SMALL WORLD!! haha that helped =) ..

i'm damn happy with the 5 bedroom location, quiet suburb like environment, and it's LESS TAHN 10 MINUTES FROM MBC ...which mean... EXTRA 1 HR SLEEP EVERY SINGLE DAMN MORNING FTW!!! XD .... really now i'm all excited with decorations..laifun found the rubber chicken toy jungshin was playing with, that's so gonna be my room's "doorbell" XD ... if oni someone can find the pointer, that's gonna be pointing to the chicken with a sign for the chicken that says "squueze meh" XD .. gosh i can just imagine..and the toy guitar too!!! ooh ooh !!! yesh! that will be stuck/hung on me door =) .. and inside my room..walls are gonna be pretty-fied with FTi posters...CNBLUE TOO!!! hopefully that shop in timesquare will be filled with new awesome FTi merchandise as well as CNBLUE i'm gonna make the shopkeeper a very very happy lady if so =D .. which would mean another battle with hand luggage and weight limits but like WTF XD ... gah better stop thinking abt decorating and all ...gaahhhhh....my new room's gonna be on the top floor, so it's like got an attic personal feel to it..gonna make it as homey and melty cosy and myown as much as possible =) .. i might want to change the study table..the furniture and drawers shud be enough to use for me, since i've got my own storage box and drawers as well.. =] .. oh next term i really wanna save and get my own tenor saxophone and clarinet too if i'm loose on finance =) ... UNCLE and AUNT please force a vacancy at the clinic and kindergarden..yesh i wanna go work for you 2 even tho i'm on summer hols XD .. i figured since imma be back 3 months.. i should be able to fit in work+awesome mad meet ups with friends fairly well..work 4 quite full time..fridays please be nice to your niece and let me off half day? XD each of you just needs to pay me a salary of RM1000 a month for 3 months..very cheap labour XD ..that is enough for either a very awesome tenor sax or very awesome clarinet..or 2 student standard instruments..if given no choice then i would take the later option but i'd rather uncle and aunt be nice to their awesome niece..RM1500 per salary per month..then i can afford both instruments, the awesome kind =] ...

formspring.me

2010-03-04T01:44:00.001Z

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10 days

2010-02-28T00:22:00.001Z

LOL it's been so long since i last blogged..well the honest excuse is simple. My life has been THAT boring ... XD yesh it has. besides the almost daily attempt and failures of trying to do too much in too little time, and in the event of it wasting a heck lot of time which could have been used to do more productive things, that's about it. Today passed an invite to go steamboat with eunice and friends. No idea who went since eunice oni said "they all" ..asked her where we were going to do the steamboat she said "dunno yet".. and she kept on emphasizing how late it'll run to..hmm....signalling and hinting on something there my friend? LOL..wasn't until i went to do laundry and bumped into edmund and nazim that i got to know they were actually doing the steamboat thing at his kitchen, and "chuan yee, kua they all" were already...lol.. but i had to pass on the invite because of several reasons.
1) eunice said we were to leave at 3.45pm which at that time was in 15 minutes, which i could not make cos at that time was in a sort of debate with mum and dad on when i should fly back to msia (YESH YOU READ RIGHT TEMPOYAK I AM GOING HOME TO YOUUUUUU XD) ....
2) i didn't wake up till 1.30pm and had laundry waiting impatiently to be done (how i hate you laundry... -.- ) ..
3) i have microorganisms and supposedly biochemistry tests next week ( so i told eunice i'll pass cos i've alot of things to do, immediately she jumped at that reply and said "oh yea you've got class tests next week rite?" ..) ..

anyway..i passed on steamboat and had a wonderful dinner of rice, bacon fried with eggs, stir fried vege with prawns..and in the event of that got my laundry washed, dried and folded before midnite =D

the whole debate of when to fly back for summer hols...i told mum eunice wants to book flight tix tomoro(sunday, which since it's after midnite, today XD) ..

mum: " oh ..okay..when are you both planning to fly back?"

me: dunnno..but i'm guessing late june?tat's the oni reasonable time i can see..

(then, eunice comes online asking me abt steamboat)

me: wait ah..the girl just came online.

(goes asking eunice...then back to mum)

me: O.o ... uhhh.... she wants to fly back 6th...

mum: WTF AKJFAJKLGFLJDKA ?!!!

XD XD XD ....

(daddy remained calm and composed like always throughout the whole 2 hr debate..the usual awesomeness of daddy =)) ... )

mum didn't really say that, but the mood and expression of it all was along those lines..mummy and her brash and short tempers and jumping to almost everything without second thought..lmfao it wasn't for her being like tat i wouldn't be how i am today, thank you mummy <3 .. so... i "poured my heart" out to daddy (ignoring mummy..) ... and i talked my way out of hell breaking loose and convinced them the most plausible way to go around it is to fly back either this or that date (lmao not tat i don't wanna disclose..but LOLLLL) ... so that's settled. Now is just to sell the idea to eunice. THe thing is, i understand that eunice wants to head home like asap but girl! she didn't think of packing and moving and settling all that THEN moving. okay she's awesome with studies and doesn't need to give a damn abt results and whether there's a possiblity that murphy's law states might happen but damn hell i don't want that to happen.....but LOL at her simple mindedness of "6th june" ... (very last day of official exam period is 5th june btw..) ... so yea... =) ...

last night fell asleep while reading in bed SITTING UPRIGHT...and i think i stayed asleep like that a good few hrs XD .. cos when i woke up, i was still upright, but my aches and muscle stuffness tell me i've been like that for a whole lot more thank 10 minutes XD ..

oh yah oh yah! my soobak craze XDD ... i was so crazed over soobak( watermelon in korean) that i went on like a soobak accessory and stationary shopping spree..anything soobak i see which is i think looks nice and i think is reasonably priced, i ordered and bought XD .. i consider myself insane cos i paid like £2+ for delivery for an accesory that cost less than £3 ..lmfao XDD .. here's what i bought and have arrived.

still waiting for a soobak pendrive to come =)) .. haha i just HAD to get that cos

1) it's soobak themed

2) DUDEEEE IT'S A PENDRIVE XDD ..

guess i shall stop now..anything ramdom i can think of and haven't blogged but is blog worthy..i shall come back =)) ....

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2010-02-24T19:52:00.002Z

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3/3 PASS!

2010-02-17T23:03:00.001Z

oh yea..human structure.. I PASS ALSO!!!

GOD THANK YOU for answering my prayers and allowing me to nicely pass all 3 modules..thank you thank you thank you for answering my prayers...i will most definitely keep to my promise and work from the start and not cram and leave everything to last minute...basically i will not let last semester's crap situation happen again!! i realise i gotta really kick ass in the summer exams and pull my grade back up..and i'm gonna start right now! i will not rest till i own tat cardiovascular system unit! even if it robs my sleep tonight!

lazy ass

2010-02-17T22:58:00.001Z

one and a half weeks since i've blogged..hmm my life is just getting more and more interesting by the min....right..........

the past week has been nothing but unproductive..week 2 meant microorganisms practical and tutorial on thursday..which means finishing 6pm and 3pm on each respective days. also marathoned shinee's hello baby..yoogeun is just freaking cute!! spazzed enough with shuu on twitter already..i shall spare blogging it here haha..i just don't know how i wasted the days when i finished early (wed thurs fri) really where did all the time go?it was like *snaps fingers* suddenly it was saturday and i was waking up in time to online a bit then go cny lunch organised by mssni...then before i knew it it was sunday morning and time to go st george's market for cny event..and among all that i didn't do laundry and forgot abt the physiology report tat was due wednesday.. >.<

this week gonna resolve to actually do proper revision..text books are not cheap and i shud make their worth XD... in short..hwaiting! XDD

suet ♥

2010-02-07T12:25:00.001Z

suet's lourve really..made me fell anything but guilty for sleeping early in the mornings and waking up at noon .. i was abt to kick myself for having such shitty sleeping patterns..

yesterday totally didn't do anything productive..stoned most of the time..only thing i did which was productive was physiology report and tat even i didn't totally complete..calculations part totally left them out..

don't start till12pm tomorro..so i guess i have like 18 waking hrs left..gotta make the most of it and revise as much f all 3 modules i can..i really do not want to go down tat same crappy path as i did last semester =(

2/3 PASS!

2010-02-06T01:19:00.002Z

RESULTS FROM SEMESTER 1 EXAM HAS BEEN RELEASED!!!!

AND my prayers have been answered so far..passed both skills and genetics modules..i didn't do well..just scraped through genetics and got decent marks for skills, which i could have done a lot better since i think i had good continuous assessment marks, it was the exam paper that pulled me down i think. Had i been more prepared for section D. Genetics i do not blame negative marking i blame myself for not going through past papers more properly..i think more than half the questions easily 3 quarters i would have been able to do properly and quite good had i done the past papers and actually prepared answers properly.

all's left now if human structure module..gos PLEASE let me get through this module okay tooo..PLEASEEEE....

But i cannot express how grateful i am to god for letting me pass. I absolutely cannot and do not want to resit at all..let bygones be bygones..this semester 2 i will work my arse and shit off..to catch up..really i promise. I realise that in the past, not only did i procrastinate too much, i left to do everything one big bulk at one go. And also i spent too much time with dramas really. The no of times i rushed back not to do anything else but marathon dramas. I will not discontinue watching dramas, nor will i discontinue forum-ing and fandom-ing and all..of course i will still keep all that going..i'll just do it moderately..that's what keeps me sane and frm not having a life outside life. Reality wise, well guess tat'll just have to be sacrificed a bit i guess..(LOL i sound like i have some lame reality life XD) ..this just means lesser trips to town, lesser badminton games (if eunice starts going again that is..lol..) ..

also and my dream of collecting ALL F.Ti pics soompi has to offer me will have to stall. Well at least until summer..but imagine saving frm like 2000+ odd pages..i do not want to spend my summer on just doing tat got too many ppl to catch up with and meet when i go back msia..so yea sorry FTi.. XD .. C.N BLUE is another new band which i think is gonna end up like how i was with DBSK and FTi ..lol..they are just really good!! them being still relatively new is easier to catch up..so right now i'm trying hard not to slack on them but then i've slacked alot from before their korean debut..so yea sucks..

it's been one full week since semester 2 has started..and i have to say i liked it a lot..human structure us rawk awesome..microorganisms so far it's hell dry..first 2 lectures learning abt history of microorganisms and microbiology ..lect 2 did techniques..today did eukaryotes and prokaryotes the whole diversity thing..which was not as bad as lect 1 and 2 i was actually NOT sleepy at all..but i think it's cos i slept a total of 8 hrs last nite..haha too much! so tonight not gonna sleep at all and maybe not tomorro night too if i can help it..sunday i'll see how much i've done justice then plan on how much sleep i'll allow myself..biochem has been a headache since lect 1 but this time around i'm determined to cure the headache on at least a twice a week basis and NOT pile everything up..

Had first practical of semester 2 on thursday, physiology practical..did a few experiment on a frog's heart..last part was using electricity to restart the heart...reminded me SO MUCH of the CPR war tanya, shuu, ji youn and i had on twitter XD ...got to sneak a few pics.. =)

next week's gonna be hell..biochem practical starts next week and it's also my session's microorganisms practical..both days i finish at 6pm..thank you very much late practical slots at 3pm..and miroorganisms tutorial on thursday till 3pm >.< ..

F U N

2010-02-03T21:47:00.001Z

i suck for wasting my whole day but FTW imma make it up and get everything read before i sleep..i will not sleep until i finish all the reading and i mean it! tomorro finish at 12pm ..so even i'm sure i won't die even if i don't sleep tonight ..

semester 2 is just rawk awesome..well at least the lecturers are .. physiology is just <3 ..though tat doesn't make the subject any easier...anatomy is more <3 .. that lecturer is like a combo of ms shieh and ms lourdes! which is like beyong awesome jjiang! XD ..miroorganisms and biochemistry is also <3 ... oh yea and i never expected lecturers of such to have a love for rock guitar punk rock bands and music XDD .. today in microorganisms lecture i almost fell asleep well not entirely black out fall asleep like what i've done before last time..but still it's not good to be like tat..then we were at the physical technique point then the lecturer took a hammer and started bashing his table..tat totally woke EVERYONE up XDD .. biochem lecture today did enzyme unit...got back the same lect as for molecular biology..this lecture i was totally awake and listening but halfway through it all got so complicated..not having handouts didn't help either but still i blame more of the complexity part >.< ..gotta read tat up too...

tomorro finish at 12pm! wOOHOO! such a motivation to chiong all out tonight....next week's gonna be hell..monday and tuesday finish at 6pm and thursday 3pm ..sucks to the max really..i hate even numbered weeks now T.T ....

recently got into a twitter frenzy..all thanks to ji youn, tanya, and shuu ..lol we the CNBLUECEREAL family XD ... and from there the seunghyunfied forum family got revived and is now the Code Azzurro forum family LMFAO so much fun..saps up alot of time..1 hrs passes like 5 minutes XD

15 more minutes then wake up call to daddy..then after that call immma chiong human structure..got cardiovascular sytem to chiong and also heart muscle practical..faster i finish faster i can come back!! puahahahahah

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2010-02-01T10:58:00.001Z

first lecture of semester 2 starts in just abit over an hour..i don't know why i don't feel right..not as in something is going to happen..it's more like wasted plus blahk plus >.< ? planned to make my mornign as productive as possible and get as much done as possible but for some reason i just couldn't get started >.< .. could it be tat whaning moment of next monday? i really don't know..mediafire sapping up all my speed doesn't help at all..browsing the internet it major sucky because of tat..did have a quick look through at AsianEU's donations..still have yet to look up the details just read through the perks for donating and what they offer donators..

okay in short i think it's safe to say i feel damn ASJKHAJFHAFHWK now..let's just hope the day will get better after introduction lectures..

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2010-02-01T00:47:00.001Z

i really don't know what i'm feeling now...conscience catching up on me?nerves of a new semester? i really have no idea..

well for the 2 weeks holidays i wanted to do quite a lot of things but i never got around to doing it..the biggest one being checking out how to organise donations' for Code Azzurro..wanted to look through AsianEU and AsianFanatics' systems and take a few notes but never got around it..guess the oni way now is to do little by little every otherday and get something done by this weekend..i said i'd get it done 2 weekends ago but i still haven't started..

also said i'd visit and read and commnet friends' LJs and blogs also that i have not done..guess i have no choice but to also do that randomly for abit every other random day XD ..gosh i suck...

well one thing i did get done wasa go through roughly my followers lists..the following list i'll leave it for now..i can still bear with the amount of notifications..and also i watched mblaq stuff like i said i'd do..JOON AND MIR KILL XDD ...

saturday was wasted by not waking up till after 5pm >.< ... ucks..another sucky thing is most of the past 2 weeks i've been going to sleep in the mornings as in arouns 8.30am-ish and not waking up till like 2pm sometimes 3.30pm..which really sucks..i'm really worried that my biological clock is so screwed up... first lecture doesn't start till noon..i have NO IDEA where the lecture is held..gotta leave earlier to find the place..hope it isn't too hard to find..it's good that i don't have a morning class tomorro..what are the chances i might not be able to wake up?! >.< ..

guess i better go brush teeth and sleep now

NEW END

2010-01-21T04:21:00.000Z

Finally exams are over! i last minute-ed EVERYTHING again..i know after A levels i said i wouldn't..but like GAH one thing after another..new found freedom where i can stay up as late as i want even on a school night and stuff didn't help much..in a way it did but GAH it's complicated..

i'm like repeating myself but i just have to lament it all out...the last week of uni i kinda gave myself an unofficial start on xmas holidays..and was totally leaving everything for the start of xmas hols to kinda cram and learn along with everything else one shot..but come holidays..something always crept up on each day so the first one and the half weeks were utterly wasted..then came exam time!...the last week leading towards exams and the week in between papers i have not crammed so hard in my life NEVER >.<

i've already ranted on skills exam so let's leave it..human structure exam..DAMN LA for wasting tuesday away..cos genetics is the day RIGHT AFTER human structure it's NO JOKE SERIOUSLY i was damn kicking myself but what's the bloody use...now i just hope to pass nicely..i'll catch up during sem 2 to pull back the difference to make up for the good grade percentage..seriously wei i don't want my summer ruined..on top of it's like damn embarrassing also..>.< .. PLEASE JUST LET ME NICELY PASS PLEASEEEEE....

saturday after genetics exam i was like damn numb...i walked back via lisburn road..passed by chung ying..freaking hungry but totally had no mood watsoever to go take away from chung ying..actually had no mood to step into tesco even but i needed certain supplies..i think that was my most reluctant trip..WTF La WTF....i spent the weekend watching harry potter movies..then went to sleep and didn't wake up till 5pm! after eating started marathon on singapore drama "together"..this time is the REAL marathon 12 eps back to back non stop..then break to eat and shower and shit and watever else i have to do..then going back for another 12 eps XD .. still miss that record of 30 eps in 2 days XDD..after together i really don't know what drama to start..maybe i shud maybe i shudn't? i've got tons of movies waiting to be watched though...

THIS TIME AROUND I really want to start anew and turn over a new leaf and start right and not slack and all that...denise said the biochem stuff has been uploaded on qol..and we've received the timetable for microorganisms..(still rememeber how excited i was when received it)..like daddy said i could start just reading through what i'll be learning next semester..i should do something and not just waste time on movie and drama marathons..of course i want to strike a balance..otherwise life would be shit haha...

oh and i want to catch up on C.N BLUE !! i've been neglecting pictures and updates and stuff before they debuted well cos i really couldn't be bothered even with the shinwoo craze XD ..now i've seen and heard their new song "loner" and all..I MUST CATCH UP LAIFUN PLEASE BE NICE AND UPLOAD THOSE PICS FOR ME THANK YOU I WILL LOVE YOU I WILL! XD ....

oh i haven't done reflections on the new year's entry...i think i shall stop here and head on to that.. =)

BAHHHH~~~

2010-01-11T16:16:00.006Z

i feel DAMN restless in a lazy unproductive way right now!! I NEED/WANT FOOSBALL!!! TME GUGU AYUNI JAY SIVA PRASHY JAYVIN (nah you're too good no fun XD) I NEED YOU PPL GET YOUR ASSES AWAY FROM MALAYSIA AND COME HERE~~~

i shall blog abt all the insane boring shit that happene before between 2-10th jan later if i can still be bothered to later..let's just say...whatever that happened during that time was effing insane boring crappy shit >.< ...

today was first day of exams...introductory skills for biosciences module...when crossing the little little road to the botanic gardens i almost got run over by an impatient driver..like BEFORE he even got near the crossing (it was red still but not my fault that like takes like 10 years to turn green i tell you no one really bothers it's such a SMALL road ) i was already half way across but since it was flooded with water from melted snow i walked SLOWLY..don't want to fall IN THE MIDDLE of the road even thought it's a freaking SMALL road...anywayz..that aside...he honked at me i completely ignored him was like whatever dude run over me if you can!...i was like 2 steps away frm crossing he couldn't just wait...sigh....

anywayz..that aside as i was making my way to the PEC..the only route i knew how to get there was BLOCKED due to ice..i was like WTF ... another way would be to go by the stranmillis backway but i DO NOT KNOW where to turn in!...i've been that way twice but both times we went when it was DARK and when i wasn't paying attention just followed whoever was in front of me (one time i was blindly following eunice's lead and she almost took the wrong turning..thanks to the others who were like OI! wrong la!" hahah..XD ) ... THANK GAWD i bumped into Ruth..if not i would be like wondering along stranmillis for only god knows how long till i found the PEC again xD ...

now let's rant abt the exam...section A i have a feeling i wrote too long for that project view essay..XD there were 2 questions in that section and we were advised to spend 40 minutes on it..i spent almost 30 minutes on that project view one i barely had time left for the 2nd question..see i started off with sections B and C first..stats and chem..thought it'd be better motivation to do questions i actually have an idea on..XD ..section D was pure piss..i swear that paper's got like record for most no of questions a section D is allowed to have XD .. there were just SO MANY! i ended up leaving out 3 questions..actually i don't think it makes a diff even if i shot the question (it was short answer btw not MCQ)..since i really had no clue what the answer was..

basically it was quite pissing..either that or my expectations were too high..i just hope for marks good enough to maintain 70% average..or somewhere close do i won't have too much to catch up in 2nd sem..LAST THING i want would be to have my summer ruined...

oh to lighten things up..after collecting genetics report from MBC decided to go back by lisburn road..on the way go cam seng to restock instant cup noodles then tesco..i kinda programmed my mind : WALK TO CAM SENG ...then continued pissing abt skills exam in my mind..then when i turned into the road leading to cam seng i saw the sign "Funeral: do not park" in front of me.. i blurred for a while and was like *gasp* WHO DIED IN CAM SENG?! ... LMFAO ..after i came to realisation i was like WTF ROFL LMFAO!! XDD ...

what a nice way to remember today by~~ XD

sanity's sake

2010-01-02T08:04:00.005Z

took off c.n blue's voice entry from being pinned..just too annoying seeing an OLD entry stuck there..PPL IF YOU EVER STUMBLE ON ME BLOG GOOGLING C.N BLUE'S VOICE MINI ALBUM LOOK HARDER THE POST IS ARCHIVED IN NOVEMBER 2009

for sanity's sake i think i should blog properly and not just tweet randomly..need to get tracks and records straight haha (gosh i'm amazing i can still laugh)

xmas hols are more than half gone..well they're not ALL GONE yet..if they were already all gone and this is the last weekend i would be attempting suicide right now (THIS IS NO JOKE)..as usual the plan to cram and study from day 1 never took off..first 4 days was gone..wasted to waking up late..winter solstice with chuan yee( tat's oni an excuse to make myself feel better XD ) ..hong gil dong (the REAL culprit) .. and just me wasting time really..then it was xmas DAY..i tried to pick up SOME pace with human structure..did reading but it all went REALLY slow..nothing much stuck in the head..then it was boxing day which was spent shopping the whole day...stupid slow lazy sunday after tat..monday was dublin trip..i was feeling so damn shitty for wasting my first week of holiday i almost didn't wanna go last minute but then everyone was so excited abt it and i tot..one more day i'll just like NOT SLEEP And really study and cram for the next remaining days of holidays..it'll all turn out okay..it shud! it's oni sem 1 of year 1 >.< .. so i went ..i'll have details up some other time ..now is NOT the time to reminisce and post pics and all... surprisingly after a rushed hectic day out..tat night was the night where i did the most studying i think..and the day tat followed, tuesday 29th was THE day i pawned endocrine system! well the facts are not like rock hard implanted in me brain yet but at least i GET IT! i really kinda get it! i just need re reading to refresh my memory especially the details abt the glands and i think i can actually do it! ..then took a very long lazy break ..then it was kinda hard to get restarted for genetics..it wasn't oni until like 2 hrs ago where the frenzy mode came back on..that same one i had on tuesday afternoon..well i'm happy it came back..oni shitty part is that it's already jan 2nd!!

basically..i've been beign lazy too much and sleeping too much for my own good..sleep is good..but not when you sleep like 8-12 hrs a day..and the remaining hours get wasted with SLOW revision =.= ...

ARGH The intense cramming imma have to do...human structure i have 2 more units to cram..unit 1's not so bad since i've done that before for the first class test properly...shudn't be too bad..unit 2's the shitty one...genetics and molecular biology..i see them as 3 parts..molecular biology, DNA, and genetics..the genetics part i think i can pawn before lunch ..DNA well i have a sorta rough idea from whatever's left from A level it's just the minute details tat's tricky..molecular biology component... X.X ... let's just leave it as that..skills chemistry section i think i'm pretty okay since it's said tat it would be in the level and way of the class test which i did quite well..so just refresher would do..the shitty thing abt it is EVERYTHING ELSE in the darn module..as if stats componentis not shitty enough ( actually it's not compared to the others..) ..all the biotech and miscropy and etc parts are just plain BLEH ... i'll worry my big head abt tat after dinner maybe XD ..

oh yea..all the gayo daejuns didn't help much either in speeding up study/cramming speed..and asianEU's anniversary goody no5 is like >.< (AWESOMENESS TO THE MAX) ... but really ...sooo much happening at once...i've got like 4 entertainment awards/drama awards/music bank show in line to dl..like 2324381913 movies i wanna dl..and oh let's not forget singapore drama "together" which is really promising from what i read frm the review ( dai yang tian XD) .. ...ARGH i think i'm ready to erupt and have a few arteries burst while i'm at it...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2010-01-01T03:12:00.002Z

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

~~-saving post for real rant out and reflection and etc once i have more sane free time on me hands--~~

21/1 - aite i shall edit and complete this entry now................

NEW YEARS TIME was damn hectic for me..well for one i had loads of cramming to do for exams..first time having to work through this time of year..usually everything would be starting new..new school year..new everything..this time around it's wrapping up the old.."new" doesn't start till feb..

reflecting back on last year..i didn't keep to my promise..being away from home and at uni did give me lots more flexibility and freedom with all of my time..no more harping naggings on turning off the lights and going to sleep at 2am..no more limits on when i go online and for how long and interrogating questions on what i do online for those LOOONNNNGGGG Hours....being able to watch dramas and movies anytime i want and however long i want to..but on the down side my "sooner or later" attitude totally killed me..studies side i didn't do as much and as properly as how i wanted to..totally fucked it in a way...didn't manage my time as properly and efficiently...

WELL THIS TIME AROUND..come new semester..i really want to do it differently..no more last minutes i should be prepared for anything anytime anyday...i really want it to be that way..dramas movies abd forum-ing will definitely still be a part of my everyday life but i will definitely fit in in awesome with everything else..late nights are still definitely going to be around..sleeping properly EVERY SINGLE NIGHT is a waste of time..no doubt it's important but the things i wanna do just won't allow it..i won't let it affect me too badly of course but at the same time with all the things i want to do in waking hours..having proper 6-8 hr of sleep every single day is a definite no no ... XD ...

this year, may i be able to make the changes and make em last XD

Boxing Day

2009-12-26T23:41:00.005Z

MY Sennheiser earphones are freaking awesome!!! LOADS better than the edifier ones i have..haha...

today went boxing day shopping with eunice, chuan yee, edmund, yuen wei, marissa and kay teck .. well more like we walked there together..after reaching we just went our seperate ways cos each person had something diff to shop for..i started off with marissa..after a while at topshop i didn't find anything i liked so left marissa alone XD (now i think back i SHOULD HAVE gotten the white hoody top >.< ) .. well i managed to control myself and spent less than £100..but really if i had all the money i spent online shopping for merchandise i would've been able to get so much more( NEXT imma go to you FIRST THING next sale!)..could have bought so much from primark if i just let loose and didn't care crap haha..and dunness! wise decision NOT going after primark lol..didn't have time to go castle court..and also the other shops that are around the area besides the few streets i've been going to everytime i go to town.. =C ...but owh well got what i wanted and MORE already today so it's good =D ..

AsianEU is AWESOME with their annivessary goodies! can't believe i wansn't aware of goodie no 5! missed out like half a month of it..wasted so much time for tat...>.< .. gonna make it up from now on till the goodie ends...THANK YOU ASIANEU YOU ARE JUST THE AWESOME-est! XD ....

right shoulder is hurting mad again..effing shitty.. >.< .. thought of making coffee then start revision but now the shoulder just feels so bloody sore i lost like more than half the mood to do so..might go lie down for a while and wake up at 2am or something to read..GOTTA finish endocrine system before dawn then after that rush cram through units 1 and 2 of human structure..no idea how i'm gonna do that since i'm like stupid both units of physiology...come monday REALLY gotta get genetics started ...i'm just as stupid with molecular biology and muddled with all related to DNA >.< ..

can't wait for jan 16th to end! at least 12.30pm of 16th jan XDD

S L O T H

2009-12-24T19:35:00.000Z

i t's been nearly a week since i last updated..i blame my uncontrollable addiction to drama marathons whether semi or full and also my beyond sloth like laziness...

presentation last friday went alright..i just had to remember to leave out the part abt the MMR being an air borne transmitted virus XD... the poster presentation was well..just going around with stacey and amber and giving everyone "3"s, "4"s or "5s" on their posters...there were other groups who did MMR as well..but ours rawked awesome! i was quite surprised when everyone voted for yellow the sunny-est brightest most cheerful yellow we could find to be the BG color..tat's like SO F.Ti !! haha..i was like yea yea yellow yellow yellow!!! XD .... ended up going to city centre then xmas market with edmund..went sligthtly nuts getting yoghurt frm M&S..they're seriously awesome! muller comes in 2nd..spelgra and nestle can just pack and go home lmao..then xmas market time! i lost control on fudge buying..but still i couldn't try every flavour there was at the stall..had my frist try at kangaroo burger..if you like wild meats you'll like it..but if you're more of a chicken and fish person then nahh...lol..i enjoyed it btw ...hehe..mushrooms were next then hot chocolate to warm up..i wanted to try some french thing tat looked awesome..it's got potatoes and bacon and some other stuff i can't remember..but was too full..owh and i was SO TEMPTED to get some tarts but i was broke for the day so T_T ....... next year!! XD ..

the fudge i kinda lost control on...

saturday just lazed around in me room..actually made a date with eunice to go tesco to stock up and explore the road abit but then she ended up nto waking up till like past 1pm with a gastricitis prob..thought i'd go explore by myself..really wanna find the m&s on lisburn road (was having fruit trifle withdrawal attacks XD)..but daddy called and mummy came not long after and by the time we were done it was past 4pm..all dark and cold..just cbf to go anymore...

IT SNOWED ON SUNDAY!! XDD didn't realise it was snowing till saw li wei's uploads..had a 2 sec lag there when i saw his pics before i realised the "belfast" he was referring to was the belfast i'm in too xDD...waited till 7am then texted eunice abt whether wanting to join edmund and i go explore lisburn road..moments later she came knocking on my door and then running to my window all excited abt the snow..her room faces the dark wood like trees no lightings and all sheltered..so she didn't know anything..she got so excited she was like "let's go take pics!!" .. XD ... made had loads of fun..made a snow man..snow angel and all..lol.. it would've been perfect if i didn't drop my camera in the snow..nothing's wrong with it..just tat i would've prefered it to not drop..

eunice went to sleep after tat but i went out with chuan yee and edmund to main building and botanic gardens to see the sights and stuff..met a few fellow malaysians bulding a snowman...a huge one..then asian supermarket where i went calbee prawn snack hunting but can't find it..but i still bought all the calbee type snakcs they had to offer...

owh and something interesting i found... XD

then in the afternoon it was lisburn road exploring!! found the M&S ..and i let myself go a bit on dessert shoppin again XD ..

monday was spent waking up at 11am..then going to help chuan yee with preperation for sort of winter solstice gathering with her and her friends..then went back and marathoned hong gil dong...seriously awesome drama..this is the FIRST DRAMA that nearly gave me a proper heart attack..the ending was like EFFING AWESOME!! ..can't get enough of it...geun suk was awesome in there!! gosh i just feel sooo much for him..being dejected and all like that from yuri... speaking of yuri..i have one question..is it like a requirement to make female leads who's the interest of the 2 male leads so damn bloody thick headed-ly BLUR?!! ...i thought minam/minyeo was bad but GOSH YI NOK YOU ARE JUST AS BAD IF NOT WORSE >.< ....

tuesday was feast day! lol..we made loads of stuff for lunch..well chuan yee did everything..all i did was arrange the vege...

The spread we had...

(in the pot: bah kut teh, grilled chicken wings(AWESOME!), stir fried shrimp with garlic and bread crumbs,sesame oil chicken,vege boiled with dried shrimp for centre piece, and egg omelet(AWESOME!) )

wednesday morning went to collect physiology reports..stoped by cam seng and then tesco to spend money again..i seriously gotta stop shopping especially grocery shop impulsively and stop using it as theraphy with sucky moods.. =.= ...

This morning something idiotic happened..i shall leave it as lots of banging on my door that led me to dream abt a bass drum...XD ... wasted the whole morning and afternoon finishing my hong gil dong marathon..the special was effing funneh and awesome ! XD ... i can't imagine wearing 3-4 layers of long johns! wonder how cold the mountains are..i've been out at 0 degrees and lower sometimes but i'm still find with no long johns oni a coat..haha..XD ..

i shall go make my turkey dinner (don't awe..it's just a microwave one..haha..) ...and then NOT waste my night and actually do some revision !!!