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~Me, myself and I ~

RIGHT .... i've still not enough free time on my hands to sit down properly and update all i've left out of from since where i last left off... i'm too torn apart wallowing here and being bipolar.

How i am being bipolar . Being happy for others and at the same time being in agony because of them certain group of biatches . ....  Here's the story .. Earlier in the day I was in fits over b2st like marathoning their globe trekking.. vegas-LA/SF-seoul-singapore .... like WTF that's like 20+++ hours of travelling with 2 transits ... even if they travelled first class, which is most likely to be, but THE JET LAG! the TIREDNESS! T_______T .. after they've safely arrived....all 6 ... after that part 2 unleashed...will i be able to watch through... MMA i already am currently putting off as much as i can, preferably after dec 5th at least ... nvm i am determined to watch .. it's streaming at a time and day where i have no lectures/good timing.. i WILL STREAM .... be it i die in the process or feel mega crap depressed after that i will ... i shall search for a remedy after that ... the fact it's being hosted in singapore makes me want to watch it more... if not be there, which is utterly impossible of course OTL ....

moving on.....

After that tug of war with me myself and i... it as all okayh actually .. not too bad.. dinner like usual...did some that's-what-friends-are-for duties....then it hit again .. with the bloody biatches being jetlagged and not being able to sleep??! and then ..... Ara woke up and decided after her shower, that she's going to MAMA ... helping scout for tix for her.. didn't breathe a  sigh of relief UNTIL saw her tweet about having tickets booked and settled ... truthfully , I was happy for her. I know how it feels first hand, to (soon) have them biatches in the country you're in but you cannot fucking go see them... I don't want that to happen to ara. BUT ... i'd be lying if i didn't admit i felt a tad bit jealous ... the fact she's able to live out that life.. live/work in sg.. and have that freedom...and attending mama for sakes of this discussion... i know she's also as torn and in dilemma as i am .. only different life situations..mine more academic realated ... hers in a different way/perspective..but one thing's the same..we both have this dilemma of a predicament revolving/based on this shizz... it's just difficult !!  So conclusion.. i cannot be more excited that the fact, Ara is going for mama, she's gonna have a whole new experience of attending an awards show, see b2st, watch b2st perform, bask in utmost pinacle of achievement and glory... i can't even describe how she might/will be feeling from this all once it ends... the epiphany is just .. .. . ..

 this can go on forever so i shall stop here with my latest experiment ... still frigging pissed with the color export but hey~ i'm trying >.<


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